Two months?

Okay, so I just realized my best friend's wedding is in two months. It literally was like "Okay, March to April, April to Mayyyyywwwhat???."

I thought I had forever for this!

I haven't been very good, I forgot my integral rule that I followed two years ago: half of every plate needs to be vegetables. I just am having such a hard time finding motivation to wake up, and work out, and eat right, blah blah blah. I mean, my life has been in transition the past few weeks with this move, but can't I just shut up and do it?

This weekend I worked really hard reframing my couch, to prepare it for re-covering, and I got a nice upper-body workout w/ all the sawing and hammering, but I haven't done shit since. It's Tuesday, and I've been sitting on my ass at a trade show all day. I was good at the lunch, half of my plate was a spinach salad w/ beets, and the other half was a couple pieces of chicken breast, but I HAVE to go to the gym in the morning.

I'm not going to be a fat cow at this wedding, I want my boyfriend to see me up there and envision us on OUR wedding day, and I want to be a bride happy with herself, not one wondering "what if I weighed 20lbs less".

Sick of Myself

Okay, so I'm back. This last week has been crazy with the move, and then I got really sick. Who would have thought I'd catch the flu when moving heavy furniture in torrential downpours? Go fig.

Anyway, I'm back. Amanda, sorry I've been slacking.

My new house has a full length mirror, and I can't TELL you how long it's been since I've see all of me in one "shot" if you will. Truth is, I don't look as terrible as I thought. That's motivation number one. I'm not a disgusting pig, I'm still curvy in the right places, and not a huge blob of fat. But, I still weigh 190, which is "obese" according to those charts. Ridic, since I don't look "obese" but whatev.That number is way too high for me, personally. I'd be stoked to be back at 164, my weight post-tour. I was still curvalicious me, but much healthier.

Gym tonight after work, and I have to be serious about it. I went last week, and I got a "welcome back!" that made me want to shoot myself, because I know they can tell exactly how long it had been since I was in. I mean, jeezy creezy, it's a free membership, I might as well use it.

After this one is done tho, I'm thinking I'm going to go to the gym a block from my house, it'll be easier, and I bet they're cheaper. I should look into that. I really want to do a kickboxing class too. That would be pretty effing sweet.

My BIGGEST problem is my self-control w/ food. In the mornings, and at work, I'm pretty good. It's when I get home that I suck. Last night was better, but like when I'm alone, and my mom brings me all my favorite snacks from when I was a kid, I just devour them, like I did when I was a kid. Worst one? French's French Fried Onions. You know, the stuff that goes on top of green bean casserole. The other night I ate a can of them. Bleh.

My whole office is getting in shape, one is on Weight Watchers, the other one wants to run more (used to be a long distance runner) and the third is getting back into the gym. They're the people I deal with more, and it's HUGE motivation. We need to all look hot, hah. I can't be the cute young thing if I look disgusting.

Bottom line, it's time. Again.

Fancy pants.

Okay, well now it's Monday after my Saturday night breakdown, and I think I'm going to be just fine. Sunday, Trev and I went to Ihop, and I was craving hashbrowns like crazy...but, I abstained, and got the healthy omelette with fruit...a couple hours later, I realized it wasn't the end of the world, I wasn't still craving the potato goodness.

Then, at dinner we went to Applebees (I know, eating out two times in one day, but we were running around all day) and I got the salmon, which was pretty amazing.

I didn't work out yet, it was raining this morning, and TJ was leaving for a week. But, tomorrow morning, I'm either running at the park, or at the gym.

I dressed really nice today, and I feel pretty. I think I need to keep looking good, clothes wise, so I feel good about myself, no matter what size. Only problem is, that involves heels, and I think my feet might fall off. We'll see.

What the hell?

Here I am, two years after doing this whole weight loss thing, 5 months after being down to 164 (summer of drum corps) and I'm at 194 again.

And, the worst part? after I weighed myself, I went and ate three slices of cold pizza, plus some hot chocolate.

What am I doing to myself? The rest of my life is going so, so well. My relationship is great, my job is great, and we're getting ready to start a new life together in a new house. So why am I sabotaging myself?

Ugh, I feel disgusting. I'm not happy with how I look, how I feel in the morning... and right now, after the healthy dinner of chicken and green beans, plus those 3 cold slices, and the hot chocolate, I don't feel "full."

Yeah, that's right, I feel disgusting, but not full. I know I could eat the other two pieces of pizza left, and not throw up. At least, not involuntarily throw u

I need to make a change in my life, right now. I've been saying this since Jan 1, but I just, well, haven't.

This next week, I have to pack, and I have to work out. Those are my only priorities. Trevor is going to be gone all week, so I have no excuse to laze around in bed. I'll wake up early to work out, and pack into the night. No big, I can do it. Sure, AllieDog is going to suffer a bit, but if I take her over to the park while I run, she might be happier.

This is it, this is totally it. I need to figure out how not to do this anymore. How to maintain a healthy weight for me, without constantly feeling like I'm depriving myself, so that it's easy for me.

New house, new lifestyle, new me.

Again.

Seriously? I'm over this whole "fat" thing.

Okay, so I just don't get it. I'm running, I'm eating well...and yet, I'm still gaining weight? I mean, it's been 15lbs in 3mo, this is ridiculous. It's back to Slimfast breakfasts and Lean Cuisine lunches, with Hydroxycut before every meal.

Oh, and does anybody know of a birth control that DOESN'T make me gain weight? Jesus. I'm currently on Levelen, but the generic brand.

BTW, my goal weight is 155. I wanna get there before move-in.

Okay, can I just say this please?

KEEP YOUR HANDS OFF THE BABIES.

Stop degrading the music education profession, and leave children under 18, or any students, ALONE.

There's been way too many of these happening, and FAR too many who I've known, or been close to.

That's it.

Pukey.

Ugh. I think I got the motivation I need to change my diet. This weekend we made pot-roast, a pretty common winter dinner for us, and the next morning I woke up puking. I don't know if it's from the pot roast, or all the sodium I had that day, or whatever...but I know the next morning when I looked at the leftovers I had saved for myself in the fridge, they just looked grey and disgusting.

So, I had toast and eggs for breakfast, chicken noodle soup for lunch, and then Trev made Montery Chicken for Dinner. We had two breasts for each of us, but I was a good little girl and separated half my dinner onto a plate for me to have tomorrow night when Trev is at hockey.

I'm still feeling icky today, and no, I'm pretty sure I'm not pregnant, thank you.

I felt good enough to walk through Target this morning after Espanol, and jeez. I need clothes. I effing LOVE winter clothes. The jackets, the lace, the layering...and I'm at a normal enough size so that I'd actually look GOOD in these things! Ugh. Being broke blows. The good news is my credit is decent enough that I got a credit card! Low limit, and high interest rate, but it's enough to pay off a couple of closed accts. I'm pretty happy that my financial situation is clearing up. Maybe I can buy some clothes soon :) (With cash, not credit. I'm not an idiot.)

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Okay, so last night Trevor made me Ms. Amana Jambalaya. And it was amazing. So amazing, I had two bowls of it, and THEN a piece of pie. (I guess pumpkin was on sale.)

So, that's my weakness. Winter foods. Carbs. Actually, all food in general. I effing love it. I don't eat a lot of fast-food crap, and when I do, I eat the best thing they have on the menu. I'm a foodie, and I love to taste. Problem is, when we cook, it's typically recipies for 4. I packup leftovers for work the next day, but typically there's more for me to snack on.

Trev had a Sharks game again tonight (and the boys KILLED it), and I got off work early, so I got to spend a good 90min at the gym today. Same strategy as last time, run a fast mile, lift, do elliptical for 25min to get cardio back up, and get rid of that latic acid that makes me hurt the next morning.

I've been talking to some people (Tim, Lauren) and we're working on keeping each other accountable. Lauren is a beast, and actually, Tim ran multiple miles his first day back to the gym, so I guess its more keeping me feeling guilty if I DON'T go to the gym.

I need to change my BC Rx. Get lower Estrogen, or something. This weight gain is retarded. But, until then, it's only going to be hard work.

Total champ.

Okay, so I didn't get up this morning and go to the gym at 5:30.

I suck.

I DID go to the gym tho! Just after work. I like it then. I like it in the morning too. Actually, I pretty much love the gym. Just a matter of remembering that at 5am.

I ran a quick (for me) mile, at 7mph. It's about an 8.5min mile. Then I did a bunch of machines...the thigh one where you work both inner and outer thigh (great for my hip flexor), leg press (they have two different ones...one where you push yourself away, and one where you push the platform away.). Then the ab one where you bring your knees to your elbows, leg lifts for my belly boobs, and side crunches on the back extension bench thingy. Then some arm stuff. Then back to the abs for another round.

Then I did the elliptical for 20min, burned over 200cal on that, then did a half-mile jog to warm down. (mph) Came home, and sauteed two zucchini, half a package of mushrooms, and a chicken breast in some salt, pepper, garlic, and 0-cal spray butter.

Hopefully I won't be too sore tomorrow, since I ran and ellipticalled after I did weight stuff. I'll take an advil with water before bed. BECAUUUSSSE tomorrow is hour-long boot camp at 5:30am. Eff.

Oh, and I'm trying to eat 1300 cal a day. Well, when I say "I'm trying", I mean I just started today. And I'm over by 10%,(calories only, not deducting any for working out) but I definitely see where I can cut that out. Like the two cookies I had before work.
Yeah. Not so bueno.

Oh yeah, it's that time again

Oh HELLO SkinnyChels. How are you? It's been so long.

Well, folks, it's that time again. Auditions. The summer with SCV was amazing, and I got down to 164lbs, two days after tour. But then silly me started taking birth control again after a 3mo hiatus, and wasn't working out 12hrs a day, so I put on 15lbs.

I've been to the gym a couple times a week for the past month, and managed to lose about 5lbs of that 15. I'm working on faster running, versus running just for a long time. I can job at 5mph for 30min, easy. So, I'm starting at 7mph for a mile, then some elliptical for 20-30min to keep up my heartrate. Work on my cardio endurance without actually running a million miles to kill my leg.

Oh right, my leg. During movein, I tore my left-hip flexor, which let me tell you, hurts like no other. You can't walk, you can't sleep, let alone march all day long. But, my good friends, ibuprofen and ice, helped me get through it. Now it;s just an inconvenient ache. The only plus side is that I don't pay as much attention to my aching knees.

I'm writing today because audition camp is soon upon us. (a month exactly this week) And, even tho I got WAY little for me, I was still the biggest girl in the hornline. (I wasn't for a while in move-ins, but then the other Lauren went home. Oh darn.) And, I'm kinda over that. Another girl in the sop line kinda amazed me...we entered at about the same size, but she was running 5mi a day in the spring season, and never dropped out of running block once. She annoyed me sometimes in her perfection, but ultimately I love her, and was envious of her dedication.

So, that's going to be me this season. It's my age-out year, my 6th year of drum corps...I'd love to get a routine going that I can maintain AFTER the season. I eat pretty decent, but there's definitely room for improvement.

I'm not exactly worried about being cut, but I do want to make a personal statement when I see everybody again after 3mo. So, starting tomorrow morning, I'm at the gym at 5:30. There's a class, Mon-Fri, at that time. Different everyday, but all interest me. Then, I have about an hour to do running or whatever else I feel I need to do to accomplish my drum-corps style conditioning.

Sooooo lets go!

100th post!!

100th post, not 100lbs. But it's alright, I didn't have 100lbs to lose anyway :)

So, my fruit flush diet went REALLY well. I'm typically not into fad diets, or quick fix diets, but this one really worked for me. It was three days of dieting, broken up into two distinct eating styles. The first day was a total of 32oz of water and 1.5C of unsweetened protein mix, broken up into 5 "meals" in the first day, one 6oz glass of the mix every two hours. Then, at dinner on the first day, I was allowed a HUGE salad w/ a little bit of meat, and a dressing of olive oil and lemon juice. This was to prepare my body for the next two days, which consisted of again, 5 meals every 2 hours, 100 cal worth of fruit. Then, at dinner, another big salad, same dressing, no meat, and a protein drink.

I did really well, had one half of a cookie on the second day, but all in all lost 9lbs! The last two weeks I gained 10lbs, from eating like shit, not working out, and the crappy food staying in my stomach.

So now, I know the weight loss got me down to my "coasting" weight, I guess. When I'm simply maintaining, and not losing. But now I feel really clean, and I want to keep feeling liek that, also, 9lbs lighter and more energy gives me the push to get out and work out, since I don't feel like a fat bloated pig anymore.

From now until tour, which is a MONTH away, I'm just going on a really low fat, high cardio weight loss plan. I'm still set on my goal of 150, but 15lbs is a lot to lose. I mean, regardless, I'm going to lose a TON of weight on tour, and eat 4 full carbalicious meals a day on tour. I HAVE to, to survive. We're likely eating 3000cal a day on tour, to make up for the 14hr rehearsals, running around in the sun all day.

Here's the thing. My body is more prepared than it ever has been going into a drum corps tour. I mean, in 2005, I called my mom and asked her to mail me a pair of size 14 jeans, which I wasn't able to fit into until Allentown (mid way thru tour, for you non-drum corps folks). Now, heading into all-days, I'm wearing a size 8, and I'm STILL one of the bigger girls in the corps. (There's beer-drinking boys who are bigger than me, but most of the girls with weight on them are naturally little, just with some belly from the offseason.) I promised myself I'd never EVER drop out of running block, like I have in years past. Everyone has when they were just starting out. So far, I have never dropped out, or walked with Vanguard. I trust this staff, and know they won't push us farther than we're physically capable of. They'll push us to that limit, for SURE! But not a step past. I don't fear getting hurt, especially being in the shape I am.

The first week of all-day rehearsals consists of two block days: first 4hr block is all conditioning, and the next is marching basics. I expect to lose, oh, 10lbs that first week. No joke.

Thanks to everyone who keeps reading this, I know it has slowed down since my inital progress last year. With me, I think maintaining a healthy weight is always going to be a conscious effort with me, not necessarily a struggle, but something that I'll always have to focus on. Let's be honest, I love food. But I like feeling good about myself, better :)

Fruit Flush...for real

So, I start my Jay Robb fruit flush today...it's a three day thing, and the name of the diet is a bit deceptive. Today I'll be drinking nothing but whey protein in water, and a huge salad w/ 3-6oz of lean meat later for dinner. Then, tomorrow and the next day is all fruit.

I'm tired right now, so I'm not SUPER looking forward to this. Boyfriend left today for almost a week... WGI Finals, and then Renegades camp. So, it's the perfect time for me to do this, without the distraction of having to feed someone else dinner while I'm fasting.

We'll see how it goes. My sister lost 10lbs on it, and it really motivated her to keep losing...has lost something like 50-60lbs since the fall. True, she also smokes, and went through a break-up, but she looks amazing, regardless.

I just remembered that I'm an extra in a drum corps movie on Thursday, way out in Santa Clara, and that's my last day on the fast. I'll be stocking right up on a ton of fruit to get me through the day, so I don't pig out on the craft service.

Okay. Time to make my icky whey protein drink, the first of like 8 to get me through the day. Bleh.

175.4

This is good, because between the last post and now, I got up to 180 again. I was laid off this past month, and I really lost all motivation. Not to mention losing my gym membership. With job hunting, and then finding a new job, I really didn't work out at all, and ate like crap again.

Not anymore, however. I've lost 5lbs in the past week and a half. I dropped three last week, maintained my weight during camp (I usually come back weighing MORE), and have dropped two since Monday.

My goal is to lose 15lbs before move-in on May 16th, which I believe is entirely possible. I'm doing cardio 4-5x a week, and Pilates 3x. Recent cardio has been with the puppy, taking her running on hills around my area, and today we're going up to the dog park.

So. This week has been successful. And now I have drum corps spring training coming up very very soon, and I can't show up unprepared, and dying after running a mile.

173.0

Oof, it's been a long time since I was in here. Sorry about that, life is really busy.

I had camp last weekend, and it was amazing! Everything we did, I was able to do, without dying/puking afterwards. I was actually EXCITED about the lunges across the floor, since I do those with 10lb weights.

I was really depressed for a while about my weight. From BD auditions in November, to about three weeks ago, I gained 10lbs. No bueno. But in the past three weeks, I've dropped back down to 173, and don't really see an end in sight. I have a healthy gym regimen; I'm there about 4-5x a week.

I'll do 20min of running, starting at 6mph, then bumping it up every 5min .2mph. Then I'll do weight lifting/strength training for 30min, either focusing on abs and arms/shoulders/back, or abs and butt/legs. Always abs, heh. The top part of my tummy is nice and flat, it's just right below my belly button I have what I call my "belly boobs." The basically looks like a small hill, divided by the line that a happy trail would follow.

It's pretty much my worst problem zone. I've come to terms with my arms, they'll get smaller as I lose the fat from around the guns I have down there. My butt/thighs used to be one, but I've come to terms with that area, and I happen to like that shape. Just have it be smaller, proportionately. Heh.

So I've been doing Pilates, and eating less fat, and crunches that target the lower ab area, on top of my cardio and everything else. I'm sure it'll be my last thing that I'll always complain about...I just wanna wear lower rise jeans, for god's sake! Wear a bathing suit without having to pull it up to my belly button! (Which, I never do, just feel like I should.)


In other news, yesterday I look all the dogs to the dog park for about an hour, and I already have my sports bra tan line back. WTF.

Chelsea loves the Sierras :)

Ah, I had such a great day today. Boyfriend, his BFF, and I woke up at 4:30 (!!!) to drive up to Sugarbowl. We didn't get there until, oh 8:30ish, but thats because we left late, and then SOMEONE left her phone at home. Oops.

Anyway, BF's BFF has NEVER been snowboarding, so luckily the slopes were still empty when we arrived. We took him down a couple runs, until he got the swing of things, and then BF and I took a long run on our own.

I'm not too too good at boarding, but I'm decent. My big problem is carving with the front side (toe side) of the board.It just freaks my out. So, going on this tree-lined run before lunch, I figured "hey, it's slow enough, noone's around, lets figure this toe-turn out." Then I fell forward, overcompensated, and fell backwards, smacking the back of my skull on snow, about 2-3in of snow, covering a rock. Es no bueno.

Anyway, I hate being a whiny baby when we're boarding, so I used BF's BFF as an excuse, and said we should break for lunch. They had some awesome burgers grills backyard-bbq style out on the deck, and it was such a beautiful day, I couldn't refuse the atmosphere. After lunch, I felt better, and then really got my workout. Apparently my favorite run was turned into a race course today, which means it was closed to the public. Fine, whatever. But maybe you could tell me BEFORE I get halfway down the mountain? Haha, whatever, because I just made my own path in some thick powder. Killer on my thighs!

I like the fruit diet someone commented in the last blog sounds TASTY. I'm going to start it tomorrow. I can still make semi-normal meals for me and BF, and perhaps just smaller portions for me? Yes. (Sorry, I don't remember your name, and I always seem to lose my blogs when I navigate away. But this is me, calling you out, saying you're awesome.)

Also, I'm going to talk to my trainer girl (aka, the one who's paid to be a trainer @ my gym, but is super cool and helps me as well. for free.) tomorrow. I gotta figure out a workout program for myself, cuz what I'm doing isn't working, and I'm busting my ass. However, I DID figure out a great crunch for lower abs, which happen to be the bane of my existence. But then I was watching Biggest Loser, and they were doing them. I still say they stole them from me...

ANYWAY, back to boarding.

I LOVE getting out there on the hill, in the quiet. Especially at Sugarbowl. It's just so MASSIVE, that you feel like it's your own private trail you just happened to find, perfectly groomed. I've had a rough week, as BF and I are trying to handle pushing the pause button on our life for three months, and it just felt really good to just carve some snow, and look bad ass.

Vanguard camp in TWO weekends :D

Fatty

Sooo I don't know what's happened.

The day before Christmas, I weighed 170lbs. The day AFTER Christmas, we went snowboarding. Plenty of activity to burn some major calories, right?

Today, I weighed 180lbs.

The last three weeks, I've worked out 5-6 days a week, with 30min of cardio at LEAST each time.

Also, my eating has not changed. If anything, I'm eating significantly less fast-food and other crap than I have in recent months.

So what gives? Thats a WHOLE lot of weight to gain, and while I'm getting pretty ripped, there's still flabbiness on me, so I can't say it's all muscle weight.

I don't understand, and I'm pretty depressed about it. I'm tempted to do a fruit-flush, and three days later start form zero, but it's hard to commit to that, and then make my boyfriend something else for dinner. Bah.

Today I've had:

Homemade breakfast sandwich: 1 whole wheat english muffin, one egg, one slice of canadian bacon, one slice of cheese
one can pears
30 stick pretzels
one can tuna

tonight, we'll probably go out to dinner, and I'll do what I usually do: lean protein (chix, or fish) and make sure they give me a vegetable, NOT bathed in butter.

I don't know. I'm completely perplexed. Perhaps I used to eat too little, and now my metabolism is all jacked, but ugh. It's frustrating.

Getting busy

So I haven't been to the gym since Friday, and I feel like a lazy butt. True, I went to Pilates on Saturday, but no cardio. I made the mistake of getting on the scale after dinner tonight, and that number SCARED me. However, my body definitely looks slimmer, and I have to chalk it up to muscle building.

I HAVE to do these 6am mornings. I don't have any other time! Luckily, my girl V at work is thinking about coming to the gym with me then. She just had a baby, and is ready to start losing. She's up at that time anyway, and getting up at 5am shouldn't be hard for me. I used to have to be to work at 4am when I was working at Starbucks!

I also need to get my trumpet upstairs. I've been looking at my music (especially Clowns) but I haven't played. I have three weeks before camp, but I shouldn't get lazy with it. I'm going to schedule my wisdom teeth to be pulled pretty much RIGHT after February camp. That should give me plenty of time before the next camp to recover.

Special thanks to Lynda for another tuition donation :) She's my best friend's mommy, and really didn't have to :)

Yay!

So I received my first sponsorship today, from Patricia in Washington. Very very VERY cool. Thanks!!

Also, my friend Rachael has offered to donate 20% of her PureRomance sales to me, if you mention my name. It's linked in this post, and I also have something in the side bar. It's really cool company that sells a bunch of romantic gifts. Valentines Day IS right around the corner!

Today I skipped my cardio workout, and instead ran around town. Wasn't too easy in the rain, but my car kept me dry, haha. I did do a one-on-one at my mom's Pilate's studio for about 90min, which would make my second impromptu personal training session this week. It felt good to loosen up all the muscles that my cardio tightens.

Mom also took me to Target and bought me a cute workout outfit, AND I got a Fuerza tank while I was at her studio. I think that after I get back from tour, I'm going to start training to be a certified Pilates instructor. It'll keep me in shape, and it can always be a source of income. Also, I'll probably take a year or so off from school after I finish my pre-chiro education (possibly a BA in Kinesiology) and I can teach while I save up money.

Pilates is so awesome, and it compliments Chiropractic. It's all about strengthening your core and spine, and it's all focused around posture! We're actually planning on opening my clinic once I graduate from LifeWest, and having mom's Pilates studio share the space. Keep everything in the family, huh?

I've got quite an exciting future ahead of me, I just need to remember to enjoy the things going on right now! So, in that ilk, I will now go watch some trash TV with my dog. :)

Falling into a routine.

Hey everyone,

The interval training is going really well. I guess when I first started it I wasn't doing it quite right, but now I've got it down pat. I'm not too good at it, but everyday it's getting easier.

The other day at the gym, nobody showed up for bootcamp, and Monique worked with me one-on-one. I also sent her information to my mom, who's looking for another reformer pilates instructor. Small world, huh? I also dropped off a sponsorship application to Angie at UltimateFitness...I didn't get to talk to her, and explain drum corps, so I hope I get a chance to sit down with her. Maybe she'd donate training sessions with Mo? Haha, that would work for me.

I've been going to the gym pretty much every day. I'm trying for 6am 5 days a week, but lets be honest: It's not happening. But, if it's lunch, or after work (like I'm about to go after I finish this entry) I still make sure to get there.

We got Send In The Clowns this week, true proof that I'm officially a member :) Boyfriend is at his OWN camp this weekend, so I'll have plenty of time this weekend to get the ol' horn to the chops.

Okay. I should get goin' to the gym, and then me and puppy have school tonight, and this weekend is full of busy errands.

Hope all is well with everyone!

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I started something new at the gym today...some guys on DCP were talking about it, and I figured I'd give it a try. HIIT = High Intensity Interval Training. Basically, warm up, then run your ass off for short bursts, with short recovery periods in between.

So, I walked at 4.0mph and .5 incline for 15 mintues, while catching up on my gossip via OK! magazine. Before I knew it, I was at 14:51, and hit the speed button. Heh...my first interval I cranked it all the way to 9.2mph. Someone told me to run like you're being chased!!! But I did the whole 60sec, then went back to 4mph to recover for 60sec. For the rest of the intervals, I brought it down to 8mph, and did 4 more high/low.

After that, I had about 5min left of my 30min time on the treadmill, so I jogged at 5.5mph for the rest of it.

I'm really lucky Boyfriend put some amazing music on my iPod...recently old NewFoundGlory and new Britney have been getting me through my hour at the gym. I turn the music up so I can't hear my own breath, and just GO.

I stood in front of the mirror when I was lifting (and lifting for me is working with 5lb weights.), wearing my "future trophy wife" shirt, and Britney's "Piece of Me" blaring in my ears, and I realized:

I'm REALLY marching Santa Clara Vanguard.

I told my bosses today, and have a slew of people waiting for my sponsorship letter to arrive in their mailboxes.

Oh, ALSO? One of my mom's clients at her Pilates studio is the NEICE of the guy who founded Vanguard, or the corps who ultimtely became Vanguard. Or maybe she's the daughter. I can't quite remember, and everything's a huge blur right now. Either way, she's super nice, and knows about corps, and it's just so silly how small this world is.


I guess the point of this blog is that I'm really REALLY happy. The worst thing that has happened to me recently was that I dropped my left-over beef stroganauf on the ground tonight, and lost about half of it, AND broke my tupperware. :( I mean, I am really stressed about leaving the real world for 3 mo, but my fortune cookies said "the decisions you're making are the right ones", so I'm going to just believe that.

Again, if you're interested in sponsoring me, PLEASE email me at strongodares@yahoo.com or push that little donate button up in the top right corner.

Thanks for reading,
Chels

2008 Santa Clara Vanguard

Ohhhh my god.

I received my email, and I'm officially a member of the 2008 Santa Clara Vanguard!!!!!

No alternate spot, no "we'll see you next camp, and then maybe"... nope nope nope, I'll pick my horn out next camp, and it's all mine for the year.

Now my workout is going to get even more intense. I'm sitting at 175 right now, and I would like to be under 170 before the next camp. School starts tomorrow, so I'm not sure WHEN I'll have time to work out, but I have to find time.

My tour fees arer $2200 this year, so please please please, if you even have an extra $20, click that donate button over there in the right top corner.

Woohoo!

Happy day today

This have been so crazy since last weekend.

I made it through the second camp, and now everyone's waiting for THIS weekend's camp in Texas to be over, so we can have our spots finalized.

To get me through the week, I've been working out a whole lot, and helping Boyfriend open up his store. He's probably pulling a 70hrs this week.

But today should be nice and relaxing. Allie and I already went and ran around outside in the chilly, sunny air, and now I'm heading over to the gym for an hour or so, before boyfriend gets home(!!!) hours earlier than I expected him to.

In other news: Allie and Mom's Border Collie, Jack, started tog training on Friday. They're both incredibly smart, and doing better than all their counterparts. Go collies!

Oh man.

I absolutely could not sleep last night. My mind wouldn't shut up! I was running music through my head, thinking about work, thinking about my work-out plan, thinking about how to afford my car-insurance, how I have to order checks, why my dog is so talkative, if I'm jinxing myself by putting my picture up, etc etc etc etc.

I went back to the gym today for the first time since Thursday. My legs are still sore, but I can sit/get up/get down the stairs without wincing. Tomorrow I'm going to spinning @ 8:30, then more of the usual on Weds. Then Thursday it's back to boot camp, and Friday it's camp!!!

Ahh!!

You see why my head is going a million miles a minute?

Food wise, I'm back to Slim Fast and Lean Cuisine. We gorged on Trev's homemade chili and cornbread last night, after a pancake breakfast that morning. It's fine, because it's working. Last week I lost 3 lbs! Pretty sweet. True, it's still Christmas weight, but you know. Whatever. I'm getting into a routine, and I'm liking it a whole lot.

39 to go!

173.8

Sweet. I ate like crap yesterday, and yet I;m still losing.


Works for me!

175.4

good.

I'm super sore today from yesterday's bootcamp. Shoulders thru my mid back, and then definitely my thighs from all the squats. But it's good stuff :)

Not much activity today, just SlimFast for breakfast, work, then off at noon. Picked up some LeanCuisines at Safeway, then headed home. A TON of rain today. It looks like a tropical storm over California right now. Pretty insane.

boot camp

Today was one of my "late" days to work; Tuesdays and Thursdays I don't have to be there until 10am. So I woke up an hour later than normal, and went to the boot camp class at UltimateFitness.

I got in a couple minute late, and they were in the middle of getting the heartrate up with jumping jacks and jump rope exercises. When I got all my stuff together, we went started quick squats...as many as we could do in 20sec intervals. 8 of them. and we had to hold the squat in the 10sec rest.

Then more squats and triceps work with the weights, 3 reps of different arm/squat exercises with sprints in between. Interchanging reps of mountain climbers and tri-dips, ab work with the medicine ball (which was REALLY fun!) and finished everything off with crunches and pushups across the room from one another, with crab running between each station.

It was a TON of fun. I mean, drum corps PT is pretty much boot-camp based, with some balance and Pilates thrown in.

The best part of the workout?

When I was sprinting, the trainer was right next to me, and said I looked like an athlete. :D She wasn't a itty-bitty skinny-mini, she was a buff woman, so her telling me I looked, and worked out, like an athlete, meant a whole lot to me.

Still fat, but on my way there!

176.4

Okay, better.

I ate well yesterday, until dinner at Chevy's, dessert at ColdStone, and two glasses of champagne at home. Although, dinner at Chevy's wasn't too bad, the fajitas are pretty decent, calorie wise, if I stay away from the beans and rice.

Once work starts this week, it'll be easier to get in gym and trumpet time. Camp is in TWO weekends, and I still need to get a recording somehow. I really want to do this, and I know if I don't give it my all, I'll regret it for life.

I'm using The Daily Plate to track my exercise, calories, and weight. It's like all those websites I used to use, into one. They have a blog feature, but I'll still write here, I think.

177lbs

I had a really bad night last night. I got on the scale after dinner, clothes and all, and the scale read "181.6". I just flipped out. I worked WAY too hard and sacrificed way too much this year to gain almost 10lbs in a WEEK.

I'm really disgusted with myself. I started purging the house of bad stuff by giving my sister two sleeves of un-diet soda that Boyfriend's mom brought over. Unfortunately, the families gave a us a ton of good stuff that they know we love to eat, and it's filling up my pantry. I don't want to get rid of absolutely everything, because Boyfriend likes that stuff too.

He's another thing. He says he hates how he looks right now, but won't do anything about it. Time for me to start making dinner again, I think.

New Years Re-cap and Rezzies

Well! Quite the year it's been, huh?

I've lost 30lbs, and gone down 4 sizes. It's a HUGE accomplishment for me to have done this, and I'm ready to start the new year with a new goal, and new ambition.

My original goal was 50lbs by the end of September, which I missed. I can blame it on nobody but myself, as I yo-yo'd a bit during the summer with the move and lack of funds. But, I can say I know what works for me, and what doesn't. I'm physically in better shape than I've ever been, and looking forward to a littler Chelsea by this time next year.

Now for my 2008 Resolutions:

1. Get down to 135lbs in the next year.
2. Cut fast-food consumption down to 1x every 2wks. (Cutting it out of my life is not in the foreseeable future, but twice a month should be fine.)
3. Teach my dog how to shake
4. Get a real spot with the corps I'm currently auditioning for, and have an incredible summer
5. Go to Vegas for my 21st birthday
6. Get Trevor and I into a decent house (not apartment), with possible fix-er-up potential.

I'm looking forward to health, happiness, and a whole lot of love in the next year, and making it the next best year of my life.


Happy New Year!!!

Updating.

So, I didn't make BD, which I'm okay with. This weekend I went elsewhere and got a call-back.

So now, I've got a strict workout regime that I must do every single day.

Run 30min/day, 4 days/wk.
100 crunches/day
100 shups/day
Some other form of cardio remaining 3 days/wk.

I need to practice and record myself before next camp, and basically rock it out. Tonight I took care of my crunches/shups in like 30min, with boyfriend watching. My pushups are kinda lame at the moment, been 3 years since I've had to do them for real...after I did 100, Trev got on the floor and totally made a fool out of me. It's okay, I'll get stronger. I only carry a trumpet around! He had a euphonium!!

It was kinda cool at the auditions, cuz we did wind sprints instead of a big long running block. Once we got into visual block, 3/4 of the hornline had to drop out and puke, and I definitely did not.

I'm really excited to be where I am right now, but I'm keeping it quiet until something definite happens. Until then, continue to wish me luck. I've got the kick-start I needed for some more weight loss, and definitely some ego for my drum corps persona.


Pretty stoked :)

Ugh. Finally.

I'm under 170 now, did I mention that?

Today I lost more baggage, and not the kind that rides on your hips, or under a plane. Just now I deleted DareTo. I got bored and lonely tonight, as Boyfriend's been out of town all weekend, and started reading old blogs. It started out on his, chock-full of typos and Lee Rudnicki-esque formatting...but he also mentioned little ol' me a lot. I sent him a text, since he's god-knows-where right now. "Been a long time baby. You loved me and just didn't know it!" We were always meant to be together.

But I digress.

From his, I went to my old ones, as far back as I could, and I was hoping I could get to when he was writing. But I only got as far back as my first few months in Florida, and really shouldn't have read those entries.

First of all: Sorry to everyone who had to read about my sex life. Inappropriate, and personal, and I should have never shared it.

Secondly: That Claudia chick was a bitch. So was Becky, and Nikki. However, Claudia was definitely the worst. But the one thing that ties them to me is that we've all been infatuated, or at least interested in the same man. I give them credit for their taste, if not their timing. However, I've got Trev for life, so I guess no time would have been a good time.

Thirdly: I can't "forgive and forget". The things Trevor did to me then still wreck my heart when I think about them. I will never forgive him for tearing me apart the way he did. However, I love the boy, and am able to move past them. That year will always be in our memory books, even if it's the page we flip past. It's made us who we are today, and unfortunately still linger in any arguement we have about fidelity. Trevor never cheated on me but it hurt just as bad. If I think about it long enough, I'll still get tears. However: I came clean to Trevor about a boy in Florida of my own when he was at DCI. Call it revenge, call it rebound, call it what you will...it still killed him, and he found out the same way I found out about every Claudia bullshit, by reading a password protected account. I never cheated on Trevor but it hurt just as bad.

I deleted all my entries because it's not fair to the future "us" to have that on our record publicly. While it still hurts my heart, and guides my trust, my man now is not the same boy I first moved in with. Neither of us were ready for the intensity of that realtionship. I wanted to hold tight to the person I always dreamed of, and he was used to having me as a back up.

I won't ever be able to get over that. I'm sorry, but it's true. It's been two years now, and I'm not mad anymore, just so much more aware.

My man loves me, more than any person on this earth (save blood ties). We've grown up together, and perhaps some of these indescretions were inevitable. We have a better understanding of who we are, and what we want out of life - and it's "us". We're willing to go through anything to stay together, because we're suckers for our love.

So while I may still hold onto past hurt, it only makes me love the man in front of me a millions times more, for being who he is today.

Well hi there!

So, BD auditions are in a week. Seven days that will fly by like no other. This past week I've finally decided on a piece, and I'm really happy with it. I had been previously working on something else, but it just wasn't motivating me. This one I have now is in one of my favorite keys, and it's exactly what they need: technicality and expression. Loving it. It is NOT a jazz piece, just in case anyone was wondering.

I'm really getting excited. There's a whole lot of positive evergy flying around, and here's the bottom line: I'm going to make the line. I AM. There's no way possible that I'm not going to.

That's it.

No one is going to take my spot. I've been gone from this family way too long, and I'm finally ready to come back and do what everyone has known I'm capable of.

I've been running at least three times a week. I haven't lost much weight recently, but as I mentioned before, I am down to a size 8...a HUGE difference from auditions 3 years ago when I was a size 16. My member jacket doesn't even FIT anymore! No problem tho, haha. I'll still wear it.

Starting Monday I'm going to start playing for Trevor, and hopefully for my mom at least once as well, to get rid of jitters. They're obviously going to be much less critical than Wayne or John, but still.

So. Good luck to everyone who's auditioning, and I'll talk to you next Sunday.

170.4

Slowwwwwwww weight loss. But I'm figuring any day now I'll lose like 5 lbs since I got so much smaller recently.

On the Blue Devil front, we're going to run at least a mile at auditions, so I need to get up to two miles super comfortably. I have my audition packet purchased, and one of the two updates downloaded. I also have exercises, and warm ups, which will help my finger dexterity to better perform my audition piece.

I'm so, SO excited about auditions now.

Today's plan (no work until like 2:30):
School 8-930
edit: go see mom at work so I can can money for a co-pay at Kaiser.
Go to Kaiser, try to get new glasses and contacts.
11am Dentist appt for a permanent crown. (ugh.)
Come home, PRACTICE for like an hour.
Leave early for work, go to the gym with my fancy new ipod. (which now works, but my Nike+ shoes are too big!)
Work @ 2:30
Jazz band @ 6:30 up in Napa.

Size EIGHT.

Huh. Went in for a pair of size 10 jeans, and instead came out with 8s.

Kinda crazy, since size 6 is my ultimate goal, but I still feel like I have way further to go still, as the scale hasn't moved below 170 yet.

Ah well. Huh. Maybe size 4 then?

fight the temptation!

Man.

My kitchen is a fat-kid's dream right now. Lucky Charms, Kix, Banana Creme Pie, bacon, ice cream, and marshmallows in the pantry. But what am I eating right now? Veggie medley (broccoli, red bell, and mushrooms) and tuna.

I came home my my eye appointment in Vacaville, and I was really tempted to relax, watch TV, and have a big ol' slice of that pie my BF insisted on bringing home. (I did have some last night, I'm no angel) Instead, I got out of the apartment for an hour and KILLED it at the gym.

First I speed-walked on an incline for 5min, then ran for 15 more. Did my new weight-lifting pattern, ran for 5 more minutes, then did the pattern again. I'm not looking at the scale for a couple days, because the number is icky :( with the strength training, the muscle is adding a little bit of weight. BUT, I'm wearing a pair of 8/10 spandex pantalones right now that my teeny tiny mom gave me. So there :)

crisis adverted.

Okay, well the root canal is done and pain free. I've also had an eye crisis this week...apparently all those warnings about wearing your contacts too long are REAL. Eye ulcers suck, especially right in the cornea. *shudder*

Anyway.

I found a workout regimen that I LOVE. It's from FullFitness, a free fitness website. (I'm doing the fat-burning one. I tried it out tonight, and having a list to follow kept me from flailing with the weights.

I'm kinda frustrated with my body right now. Not my weight so much, but I guess more of my immune system. I'm taking really good care of myself, and all these bull-crap setbacks keep happening. Whether it's the flu, or temporary blindness, or a root canal...it's just mentally hard to work through.

I will work out each day this weekend, and Saturday and Sunday I'll do 3 sets of the fat-burning work out. Tonight I only did two, but ran around my apartment complex, and up the three flights of stairs, after.

I'm so close to the 160s. This always happens, I get close to a 10lb mark, and then something gets in the way. Pretty retarded.

Oh well. Thinking positive. This new routine will keep me from getting bored for a while at least, and it truly challenges me, and I leave the gym exhausted. Good.

my best assests are disappearing

Soooo, I've lost like 10lbs since DCA weekend. Maybe a little less, but not really. Unfortunately, that weight seems to have disappeared from my butt and my boobs. My mom noticed the top, and boyfriend definitely notices the lower part missing :(

So I'm looking for the Daisy Duke workout...what Jessica Simpson did to get ready for the movie. I want to be in shape, but I can't lose my signature behind!

Haha, whatever. I'm being ridiculous.

My birthday is in two weeks. With twenty pounds to go now, I'm successfully past the 1/2 way mark, and with my recent weight loss without any exercising, it would be easy to assume I might get there. But I know realistically I won't make it down to 150, but I'm trying. I'm going to work out tomorrow morning, and sunday as well...I just have to get in workouts when I can. I might start going up to Fuerza (my mom's pilates studio) on Tuesday mornings between classes...I know she'd like that. I probably should.

I'm pretty happy with my progress. I know I sucked it up this summer, and I wasted a bunch of time...but there's no denying I lost 30lbs. I'm very much looking forward to family pictures this Christmas, and comparing them to last year.

171.4

Uh, okay.

teeth suck (173.8)

Hi guys.

I'm eating again, good thing. The puking has stopped, I'm just still super tired.

But a couple weeks ago I had a filling done. It was for a tooth with a really deep groove, and apparently even if I washed my mouth out with bleach every night on top of brushing/flossing twice daily, I still would have ended up with a cavity in that tooth.

Well, the filling they put in had to go super deep, and now it is cracking my tooth apart. Sweet, huh? So my dentist thinks I definitely need a crown, and I probably need a root canal too. (I'll find out on Friday) UGH. Add this on top of the wisdom teeth I need pulled, and I've got a big ol' party going on in my mouth.

I just picked (maybe) my audition piece, and if I end up with all this major mouth surgery, how exactly am I supposed to practice? Double tounging (my nemisis) isn't exactly easy anyway, let alone with gobs of gauze in my mouth. Friggin' A.

Heh, the plus side is I'll only be able to eat out of a straw, so maybe I'll lose more weight.

KIDDING!

Kinda.

Ugh. Today sucks. Add that on to my test in Physchology today, which I am completely UNprepared for (kinda hard to prepare without a book.), and I'm pretty freaking cranky this morning/afternoon.

I do have jazz ensemble later, which I'm very much looking forward to. I'm playing with a ton of people from high-school. It's actually almost exactly the make-up of jazz band my junior year, with a couple old guys thrown in the mix.

Okay. I'm gonna go study my notes for class now. I hope I don't need a scantron or anything. That would REALLY friggin' suck.

173.8

Well hi!

I know, what a stranger, huh? Well I just got back from Rochester last week, and I've been very sick this weekend. I finally have weekends free, so I promise I won't be so neglectful (I know, the best laid plans, right?)

In BD news, I practiced for an hour today, on a incredibly hard but FUN etude. We'll see if I stick with it, but I have to pick a piece very soon so I can get that down pat.

Health wise, eh, haven't worked out at all recently. But doing a lot of drum corps (and way less eating) has helped me maintain, and DROP weight! Do you see that? 173. (ish) Super close to the 160s :)

Tiffany from Renegades has offered herself for (free) tutoring sessions for me, add that on to Jazz band on Tuesdays and my supportive boyfriend, and I've got practicing down. I got running to like 15min without dying, always trying to do better.

Trev and I are considering getting me to a mid-west BD auditions, get my face out there some more. Imagine me being in Indy at auditions, and John Mehann's face, lol.

Now we're off to the dog park and dinner at mom's house.

175.2lbs

Well, thats what it said on Saturday morning.

Anyway, Blue Devils won DCI. I'm pretty iffy about it, because a long time ago, three best friends and I shook hands over some fast food, saying that in 2007 we'd all march Devs A Corps, go to Finals in SoCal, and get rings. Unfortunately, only 1 of us did it. There was no major emergency that stopped the other three of us from marching. Basically, just life.

It just really kinda hit me. I need my priorities in check. I could be wearing that ring, but I didn't make it a serious goal in my life. Now, I have only 2 years left to do it. I also realized that I don't really care about the ring, I just want to march there. I'll regret it my whole life if I don't.

Anyway.

I ate like crap at Trevor's family's house this weekend, but we had a puppy emergency on Friday night that made me need comfort food. In reality, it wasn't too bad, just more food than normal. But puppy is doing better, my best friend is coming home to motivate me, boyfriend is gonna kick my butt if I don't practice...things will work themselves out.

I'm just really stressed right now. I hear working out is a good remedy for that ;)

176.6lbs

Finally, FINALLY! Some movement! I've been drinking a whole lot of water the last three days, trying to combat my new office-chair position. I might not move as much as I did in restaurants, but if I drink multiple liters of water a day, I HAVE to get up sometime to go potty, right? Haha.

Soooooo lets see. It's now the middle of August, and I'm pretty far away from my goal. HOWEVER, I've done pretty stinkin' decent at taking a bunch of weight off, keeping it off, and maintaining a healthy lifestyle, all WITHOUT killing myself.

My focus is changing a bit now. I'm not exclusively trying to look better anymore...now it's time for me to officially get in shape. Drum corps auditions are right around the corner. Div I size is going up from 135 to 150, and with a big turnover rate in BD's hornline this season, it's now or never for me. I don't want to rook-out with Devs (while there's nothing wrong with it). I'm a Blue Devil, I've done 2 years in the organization already, and I should at least finish it up with the same amount of time with the big boys.

So, this blog is going to focus a little more on me prepping for that, rather than calorie count. However, the more I play and breathe with rythmic accuracy (shout out to my bass drum boys), the more I work on strengthening my core to march better, the more I run so I'm not in the back in the running block, I'm still going to get in shape.

Also, I know there are a few people who read this who have known me (if electronically) for quite a few years now. I want you to read this, support me, wish me luck....and honestly, if I make it, I'm going to need sponsorships, pretty badly. I've been living on my own for two years now, and I'll need to pay my rent for the three months I'm on tour.

I'm not asking anyone YET, just trying to put this blog out there so if anyone ever says "hey, who deserves to be sponsored?" ( and through hard work and dedication I make Devs) you think of your girl Chelsea over here. :)

Okay so.

Today I ran at 5.5mph for 10min. Everyday I'm going to try to boost it up another minute. Today I felt great, until I stopped running. Then I almost died. So I jumped on the elliptical for 15min to keep my blood pumping. Then I grabbed the 10lb hand weights and worked my triceps (not gonna lie, my arms are a little flabby.) I then held one weight up like a horn and did some slides. Kinda dorky, but whatever.

As mentioned, I'm seriously drinking a ton of water at work. Keeps me from snacking on the treats in the back room.

Stay tuned, por favor. This girl is goin for the GOLD! err...blue.

Twelve.

As in SIZE 12.

Wooooooofreakinghoooooo!!!

They're Levi's too, which is friggin awesome, since Levi's run small, or so I'm told.

They're snug, but not ugly snug...my ass looks amazing! Also, plenty of motivation to workout to get them loose, and then too big. I will never buy 14s ever again.

Way excited.

Eating today has been kinda crappy...a Chop Chop Past Salad (SBUX) for breakfast (at like 6am and 8am) and then a ham sandwich from Genova's Deli. (Ham, fresh mozz, tomatoes, lettuce, onions, oil/vin instead of mayo, sour roll) We'll probably do something light for dinner, if anything. Mom wants to take us to Celedon for apps and salads, which sounds right up my alley. We'll see.

This weekend is gonna be nice and relaxing, just the 777 Renegade picnic on Saturday, then Sunday at the Hollister Bike Rally with Trev's mama. Then back to the grind on Monday, and a new JOB! Then next weekend, in LA with the corps. I won't have a whole lot of time to work out, so it is really going to be all about eating right and drinking LOTS of non-alcoholic, 0-calorie beverages,

Hope ya'll are doing well!

Chels

Water we doing?

Sorry I'm not updating with daily weights...I'm trying to be real good about not weighing myself every single day.

I'm forcing myself to drink more water...I'll make a venti cup of ice water, and give myself an hour to drink it, no matter how busy I am. I also ate breakfast today! look at me go.

Now I should head to bed, since I have work at 4freakingam tomorrow.

Love, peace, no grease!
Chelsea

Retarded.

Drum corps used to make me skinny...now I come back from camps weighing a pound heavier. Probably all the beverages and crap food we eat makes that happen.

This weekend is just a corps BBQ and then the rest of the weekend with BF's mommy, so I SHOULD be okay...Time to step it up just a little bit, probably go from 30 to 40 minutes on my cardio machines.

Dinner was good tonight, just a conglomeration of leftover stuff in our freezer...last piece of chicken, half bag of oriental veggies, and brown rice (not from the freezer, lol.) Probably ate too much, but makes up for not eating earlier today. I know, I know, but I was busy, getting a NEW JOB!

Don't know if I've mentioned chiropractic at all in here, but I want to be a chiropractor. I start my preresiquite classes in the fall....biology, chemistry, psychology, etc to be able to go to the school in Hayward in hopefully a year or so. So today I was looking for a new job, and I saw a REALLY nice chiropractor's office, so I went in on a whim. Talked to the office manager, then the Doctor, and they both love me, and I'm in there at 11 on Monday to fill out all my paperwork!

So I'll be working two jobs for a while, wanna see what kind of hours I can get at the office. The BEST part? (here's my never-ending optimism) I have to walk to both jobs. My mom is talking about getting me her bike, but we'll see.

So thats what's going on right now, have a great 4th!!!!

178.2

So last night I had some good food that my tummy was like, "okay, not good for me" so today I feel a little bit like I have a hangover.

BUt I did have a Baskin Robbin's banana sundae (versus the brownie one) with low-fat ice-cream, instead of the otehr one I wanted, and it actually ended up being hecka rich.

Today is a U-turn day, however. I can't think of anything tastier than that big bowl of fruit I'm going to have for lunch from the SBUX chilled meals fridge. Mmmmmmm.

Also, in unrealted news, I'm sick of dumb girls.

I have to get onto my other computer, cuz it's damn time I updated that little scale in the corner over there.

Maybe I will after I get back from the gym with neighbor/coworker Emily. We're gymming, then pooling/tanning. Yay.

A girl at work told me I look super skinny today. I'm not, I'm nowhere near skinny, but I am getting slimmer. It's wonderful. Seriously, I'm under 179. Read any post, that's like the magic number. I don't honestly remember being this number, EVER. Obviously I was at one point, but it was only on my way (weigh?) up.

K, time to change and call Emmy-poo.

Do you guys even read this anymore?

178.6

:)

179.2

Well, this is according to my wacked out scale.

But, I'm not getting a new scale anytime soon sooooo we're gonna just keep going with the number it gives me, even if that means taking a numerical step back.

I'm working out everyday, a nice combination of cardio and weight lifting...I'm concentrating on my core. My legs and arms are pretty muscular, it's my lower abs and lower obliques that are my problem areas. While they have muscle too (it's always nice to discover unknown muscles in the mirror) I'm flabbiest there.

97 days to go!

97days=13.85weeks
30lbs/13.8weeks
=
2.16lbs a week

COMPLETELY doable.

My motivation:

Me at Christmas.

Ewwwwwwww

It's crunch time, ladies and gentlemen.

So, as I was dating brownie bites at Starbucks yesterday, I noticed their expiration date is June 28th. Which is of course, 3 months from September 28th, which is the deadline for me to lose 50lbs.

I'm sitting at having lost 23-25lbs, remember my wacky scale, so that just leaves me with just another 25ish to go. I lost 20lbs in the first two months of this, and then pretty much stopped working out/eating better until just recently. Soooo to my body, I'm starting a new diet, which is of course when you lose the most weight.

The difference this time is I'm pretty much broke. So no SlimFast anymore, and definitely no more HydroxyCut. True, I only bought one bottle of it and only took them sporadically, but still. This is true dieting here now folks. I'm really good at working out after work. I love it. Today I've been browsing photos of my weekend drum corps shows, so I didn't go when I got off 2hrs ago, but I still have all afternoon. It's only 12:30 for jeezy.

Everyone at work knows about my dieting and working out, and I find that is super helpful. I don't want to have a pastry because then I'll just fall back into Fat Kid mode, and people will feel sorry for me for not having any self-control. There's actually a couple who want to come work out with me, or lay out in the sun with me after, which is super convinient, since I live right behind work. I like it. Making friends and looking better all at the same time, right?

Well here's a recent picture of me, from the weekend actually. My thunder thighs have never looks smaller. (even set between two skinny guys, I don't look too bad, huh?)

Starbucks curse.

So, I'm sure you've heard of it...girls start working at Starbucks and gain 5,10,15lbs in the first month.

WELL!

Not me.

I, in fact, have lost 5lbs in the last two weeks.

I'm not sure of my exact number right now, as I'm sure you remember, my scale was reading heavy after the move. However, I'm still using it to figure out what I've lost since I've been in California.

I've got a nice routine down now. Do an early morning shift at work, come home, walk puppy, nibble on a little somethin-somethin, work out, then nap by the pool. Then I still have all afternoon to do work around the house (or TV watching) that would normally prevent me from working out.

I feel good, I look good, and I'm starting to enjoy working out again. Except I think I got some sort of rash from the gym floor last time...I'll make sure to bring a towel with me today, lol.

How's life, faithful readers?

Back from the dead

Hey guys.

I'm still right around the same weight, things have been kinda stressful with a new job, the new place, and of course, drum corps on the weekend. But, I'm getting back into it. I've been working out mostly everyday after work, for the past week, including today. I only have 4.5 months to lose my 30 pounds to get to 50, and I'm trying real hard again. I'm tanning out by the pool too, so I feel more confident about myself.

There's been some stuff recently that has made me kinda ashamed of my body, so I neglected it for a while. While compliments are nice, harrassment is not, and I've just wanted to cover everything up for the past few weeks.

Boyfriend is back on board with me as well. He doesn't like what he sees around his middle, and I am more than happy to help him out. Starting with healthy meals ,and smaller portions. While I can't control what he does at work, or how often he works out, I can do my part by making nutritious dinners for us.

I'm pretty exhausted all the time right now. We don't have a bed yet, so we've been sleeping on air mattresses that deflate during the night. Also, I've started working early shifts at Starbucks...like EARLY early 4am shifts. So I'll eat something on my "lunch" at 8am, and thats about it until dinner. I do my best to get drinks with 10 calories or less. (ie espresso or tea drinks with sugar-free sweetners.)

I am happy, I'm just still adjusting to our new life. But I think with some consistancy, like my working out everyday, things will get easier.

And I can always sleep when I'm dead, right?

new apartment!!

So, I got a new place in Napa Junction, which is like, in between Napa and American Canyon (which is between Napa and Vallejo). We haven't signed the official lease quuuite yet, but we will do so this week.

While it's a bit more expensive than we were hoping, it's going to save me some money in gym fees. See, the gym isn't a lameo excuse for a gym like my old place...no no. This one has cardio, free weights, some weight machines AND TVs. Yay. So I don't have to pay for a new one.

Also, my mom's scale might be off, cuz I got on mine, and the number most definitely wasn't the same.

But whatever. I've been eating like crap recently, since we've hardly paid for a single meal since we got out here. once we're in our own place, paying for every bite, I'm sure I'll go back to cheap fresh everything.

Sorry for the negligence, I'm just trying to get settled here. I'll be back regularly soon enough.

love
Chels

178

prettyyy awesome.

Since I last posted, I had to pack up my life , and move to California. This also involves packing up my trusty scale :( But it's okay. We ate like crap on the road, no time to sit down and eat, so our only options involved paper cheese.

Since we've been in my mom's house, I've felt like I'm only eating crap. So, I assumed I gained a couple pounds.

But, low and behold, this morning I go and weigh myself on mom's scale, and it reads 178! Hmm. Whodathunkit.

Yesterday WAS a very athletic day for us. I went and did an hour of hard-core pilates with my mom, then we walked the dogs in the Napa foothills, then we played catch, THEN we played a game of 1-on-1 basketball, which I pretty much suck at. oh well.

So this morning I'm sore, and much lighter than I expected. Sweet.

179.8

Woohoo.

I guess stress is the best diet for me.

Well, stress, thin stick pretzels (2cal each), and Diet Nestea (0cal).

Life kinda sucks right now, I'm pretty much stuck in Florida for the moment. Until a miracle happens, or my mom comes to her senses (which in itself would be a miracle.)

I have the day off, so lots of matinence cleaning...we got the carpets cleaned 2 weeks ago, but still have a non-potty trained puppy. Reason # 247.3 it makes more sense for us to leave now. I'm thinking I'll just cover the carpet in puppy pads, yeah?

183.6

Yesterday morn, after my exciting first day of eating well and recording as much, I weighed 184.4. It's always that, right? Ugh. Well, apparently thats where I was.

This morning, after a pretty crappy eating day, (it started with Cracker Barrell, then nothing, then a chicken sandwich and shared strawberry shortcake at the Marlin's game) I weighed almost a pound less!

Yay.
Today I've just had a couple chunks of melon, about 20 thin stick pretzels, and a can of 0cal Nestea. My boyfriend's the best, he came home with a bunch of no-calorie drinks for us. Water does get rather boring.

Tonight's DCI Classic Countdown, but I gotta get some housecleaning done after work so I can sell the house to our friend Marcus. Yes, that would be good. That way I can move my smaller butt back to California!

Eek, I gotta be at work in 14min.

Byyee

2800cal lighter

Yep.

Keeping a food diary keeps me focused on what I'm eating. I can't just forget about calories if I'm writing them down, so I don't want to eat the bad stuff so I don't have to have written proof I ate them!

Sooooo I ate 1476.5cal today...not bad at all! Jackie on Workout wants her SkyLab clients eating 1300 calories, so I'm close, yeah?

I think I mentioned last night that to maintain my weight, I need to consume 2400 calories a day, to make up for all that I burn, just existing throughout the day. So, what everyone tells you, is to take the "daily energy expenditure" number, and make sure you have 500 less calories every day to lose 1lb a week. (3500cal=1 pound)

For example: I could eat 2400 calories a day and burn an extra 500 calories by working out, and if I did that everyday, I'd lose a pound a week. Or, I could not workout at all, and eat 500 less calories. Or, the easiest way the experts suggest, eat 250 less calories and burn 250 more calories.

Get it? Got it.

Sooooo I ate 1476.5 calories today, right?

Well, including my daily energy expediture (2400cal), my fast walking at work for 4 hours (1300cal) and my bike/eliptical workout this evening (150+450cal) I had a defecit of 2823.5cal.

That means I only have about 700 more calories to burn to lose 1 whopping pound, in one day!

Yay math.

Back on the Fat Wagon

And I hate it.

I've gained about 3lbs from my lowest of 180.4, and it just feel so icky. Today and Saturday I did 30min of cardio, then some ab and arm exercises. I've also enlisted my boyfriend to yell at me and withold cuddles until I work out. Quite convincing, I have to say.

I've come up with some different tactics to tackle my next 20lbs. I'm starting a food/exercise journal, complete with calorie counts (burned and consumed). CelebrityFitClub.com says I should be consuming about 1600cal a day to lose weight. I know I go from 1000-2000 calories. Quite a difference there, huh?

Also, CFC also told me my BMI is 31. This is better than 35, what it used to be...but this is also NOT taking into account the amount of muscle I have versus other people of my height/weight. So, I'm assuming it's right around 28...which, while still heavy, is not too far away from a healthy BMI of 18-24.

I've also created a Excel spread sheet to record my weight, waist size, and energy level for the next three weeks, and I am NOT weighing myself 47billion times a day. I'm going to try for every two days...which is a lifetime for me!

Okay, I have to go pick up boyfriend now...I skipped out on cuddling with him between turns at the bowling alley to come home and work out. Which I did. There was a skinny chick on the eliptical when I went across the street to the little gym (like, 10x10') and I almost didn't go in.

But then I did, and now I smell. Yay.

182.4

Yay! Since Monday I've lost two pounds. Boyfriend beat me with four, however. Of course, cuz he's a boy.


Last night for dinner we had artichokes and Monterrey chicken. Yes, with two r's. Grilled chicken breast, couple slices of avocado, with a slice of melted provolone over it. Mmmmmmmmm.


Well my computer is dying and I have to clean the house. So I'll go, but I'm making progress again. Yay.

back to the gym

So I finally got off my butt and went to the gym this morning. Not the little neighborhood gym, Planet Fitness, actually. I needed to see other people working out, instead of my doggy barking at me to feed her breakfast. She's not very motivating, lol.

I had a Slim Fast before I left, and I think I'm gonna have a couple bites of ham for protein to take advantage of my metabolism.

Also, I think I need to change things up at the gym. Recently (when I have gone) I've done the bike for 25min to warm up my legs, then gone to the elliptical or running. Thing is, the bike doesn't really get my heart rate too high. 140-145 at most. But on the elliptical, I'm goin 7mph in the first few minutes. Sooooooo I think I'm gonna to that first, THEN the bike, so my heart rate is still up, so I can burn away my booty faster.

Well now I have to walk the dog and shower before work. It's an icky 8:30-4 day today...tomorrow I can slack a little more since I don't go in until 10.

Reno, you back with me?

Chelsea Loses Weight: Take Two.

Hi.

It's me.

How is everyone?

Austin, I know that was you.

Sooooooo Wednesday, it'll have been a month since I kinda...well...REALLY started slacking. My diets the same! Just...not NEARLY as much working out. I've gained about 2-3lbs...not that bad, but not that good either. I could have been losing weight for all that time.

Monday I start again. Fresh. And my goal is 10lbs in the next month. It's alot, I know, but I've done it before. The best part is that this time, boyfriend is dieting with me! And I'm going to make us dinners that are healthy, and he can't complain that he wants mac and cheese and meatloaf, because we all know, not-so-secretly, I want macandmeat too. He's gained some weight since he was at his lowest after the summer of 05, and he's not happy about it.

I know my 20lbs is ALOT, but I'm still kinda in the same general area I have been. People aren't gonna be like, "WHOA Chels!". They'll just say, "oh, you look great!"

Nuh uh. Back on Team Skinny-Shock. (I added the "shock" part to the already existing TS.)

So this weekend we went all out at Orlando theme parks. Universal Studios, Islands of Adventure, Sea World..pretty awesome. We weren't eating every funnel cake that came our way, but I will admit two pretzels and one hotdog were consumed this weekend.

Get used to that, by the way. Me writing down what I've been eating. I've fallen back into snacking at work. Crouton or two here, pinapple and grapes there, couple muffin tops (I know, I know).... I just need to stay reliable and get back into being really stringent.

Something else I discovered this weekend? I like mahi-mahi! I had it at Bubba Gumps. It actually doesn't taste like anything, which we decided is better than tasting super fishy. Soooo I'll be coming up with some super tasty but healthy dinners for us. Actually, I've got a recipe for ya for some zucchini...we tried it the other night.

Slice 3 zuccs lengthwise, carve out a little bit of the middle, like a canoe. Sautee some garlic in a wee bit of EEVO for about 5-10 seconds. Lay zucc cut side down in oil/garlic, season with salt/pepper/garlic powder to taste. Careful of not letting garlic burn, heat zucc until cut side is soft and tender, but skin is still crisp. Now add a little more salt/pepper, and sprinkle crumbled low-fat feta cheese on top. Broil until melted.
(That recipe is from my Chicken Soup for the Fat Ass' Soul, btw)

REALLY yummy, and BF loved it. I made that with my lobster/tri-tip dinner, Reno. I'll get you more recpies.

Okay, I'm tired now, and my puppy really wants to lick my face.

Sooooooo to recap (because as boyfriend informed me tonight, I tend to birdwalk)
1. hiback.
2. Austin sucks.
3. Chelsea sucks more.
4. Boyfriend admitted he sucked.
5. Orlando did NOT suck.
6. Low-fat/low-cal recipes from now on because...
7. ...WE (yes! both of us!) are on the weightloss track, and have a goal of 10lbs EACH in the next month. That means my fat-butt will be in the low 170's by the time I arrive back in California. Yay.


Next time...how Chelsea is totally freaking out about this move to California.

LOVE!

181.0 again.

Meh.

Yesterday I ran out of the house way late for work, and didn't get my SlimFast. Soooo I had like 6 pieces of pineapple. Then at home, all I had was a few peanuts left over from hockey, and those damn sugar free gummy bears. but then Trev and I made chicken and broccoli alfredo bake. REALLY good, and I didn't eat too much.

but I went to Old Navy to try size 12s, and they fit! I was abotu to take them home with me. But then my Patrick-substitute, Rachel, was like "Girl, you KNOW them pants too tight." They were. Just a little bit. Like, seriously, like a centimeter too tight. They fit well enough that I would normally bring them home. But Rachel smacked the sense into me with her candid response, and told me to come back in a week, because then, "they'll slide right up over those hips you got, and you'll feel so much better."

But in general, I think I'm over Old Navy. Their pants fit real weird. Tight in the thighs, and loose in the waist. And the crotches are always like two inches below my hoohah, making my legs look shorter than they already are. Apparently they run small, too? So I'm thinking about making a trip up to the mall to American Eagle to try some 14s and some 12s. I gott buy a pair of Jimmyz jeans before I move to Cal, since we don't have them out there. :( sad face.

Okay, I go now. Panera Bread with boyfriend and puppy, and then HOCKEY! The second to last game of the season :(

181.0

I really have no motivation right now. I hurt my shoulder at work the other day, and I just don't want to do anything. Now, I know biking and running won't hurt it any, probably will loosen up the muscle, but meh.

I'm way stressing with this move coming up. I have to get this house sold or rented before I can leave, which involves quite a few little fix-ups. I have to save so much money so we can be set to go, for the movers and for our own trip across the country, AND to have a little money saved up so we can get into our own place ASAP.

Also, this stupid girl is telling my boyfriend she is going to wait for him. She had her chance for five years, and completely blew it. Sorry baby cakes, you effed up, and if you want to wait around, please, go right ahead. But you're going to be waiting until I leave this earth, because nothing else is going to break us apart.

Thats why I didn't go to the gym this morning. After Boyfriend left for work at 5:30, I said I'd sleep in until 7, get up, go to the gym. But, I didn't sleep thinking about this dumb girl. I want to email her, telling her to leave me and Boyfriend alone. Or, if she really wants to be friends again so bad, to be a real friend and quit trying to break us up. This will be attempt #2 since Christmas '05. I'm just sick of it. She's always like "I want you to be happy" but she obviously doesn't, because Boyfriend wants to marry me. He's obviously happy and secure in our relationship. Usually now I'd be flipping out, crying, getting crazy jealous...but I've gotten better with my whole jealousy bit. I'm starting to realize everyone is jealous of US. But that doesn't mean I want her bugging Boyfriend everyday about how she missed her chance. Too bad she only does it when she's single.

Anyway, my mind was running a mile a minute, and when I did nap for 10min, I had a dream about walking down Jefferson in Napa in front of Napa High with my sister driving BF's Mustang. Safe to say, not a very restful nap. So, when my alarm went off, I got up all groggy, realized I did't know where my sports bra was (which I have now found, it's on my coffee table), called the puppy up on the bed, and went back to sleep. Kinda.

Now I feel icky and fat, and that Mexican food last night didn't make me crap as much as I expected. I'm out of SlimFast, and birthcontrol as well. AND to top it all off, my customers have decided to be very open with their feelings to me. For example, one says he thought I was 28-30, and was genuinely suprised when I told him I was 19.

Best yesterday's definitely took the cake. Right out of my little fat girl hands. He asks me if I live anywhere near Wellington, which I told him I don't. And then he says "Oh, well we're opening a Curves up there, and you look like the type of girl who'd be interested."

ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I was in shock that he even SAID that, becuase his wife sitting with him was easily three times my size with makeup chalk all over her fat ass face. Lemme tell you too, boy was not as fit as he could be. I politely declined, saying that, "No, I already go to Planet Fitness, and Curves never worked for anyone in my family, as it doesn't get your heart rate up at all. Besides, isn't the company going under?"

Ugh. So mad. I know I've lost all this weight, but apprently people still see the fat girl inside.

Thats it. I'm putting my gym clothes in the car, I'm going to somehow weasle my way out of work early, and go to the mother-effing gym. Look, I got myself all motivted and fired-up, right in front of your very eyes!

Ugh, but right now I have to seriously wash some dishes in the kitchen. I'm about to puke.

Hope everyone else is getting over their hurdles.

181.4

Sweet. Thats a completely accurate reading too. Didn't believe it, then got on the scale twice more to confirm it.

I've had ice cream 4 nights in a row. Me and boyfriend pretty much love it. But, other than my little ice creams, I've actually been eating really really well. SlimFast, salad, and then something good for me for dinner. And ice cream, haha.

Still no regular gym. I feel guilty leaving the puppy at home for any longer than I need to.

182.0

I think my scale was lying when it said 181 last time. Cuz it's been kinda wacky. Takes a couple times to get the same number. This morning it said (all within the same 2min period) I weighed 183, 180.4, and 182. It stuck at 182 the next couple times I tried it, soooo I went with that. Although the 180.4 would have been nice.

Oh well, 182 works for me. It's still 1.6lbs below what the last saved weight was.

Today my cardio has been cleaning the house. Hardcore spring cleaning. With getting ready to move, I need to get the house show ready, so people can come and go "oh, I want to live here! let me rent/buy it!"

Blah. Tired now. I totally had a specific reason to come on here and chat, and the above wasn't it. Ummmmmmmmmmm hmm.

I ate really well yesterday? SlimFast, huge salad for lunch, ice cream (it was small.) and a hot dog at the hockey game. Well within my caloric budget.

OH! I remember! "hockey game" spurred my memory.

PRETTY sure I need size 12s now. Those 14s I bought at Old Navy a couple weeks ago were straight up falling off my ass last night at the game. To walk ANYWHERE, I pretty much had to hold the back up to prevent mooning all the South Florida hockey fans.

Unfortunately, I don't have a bunch of money to go buy another jean skirt, or two more pairs of jeans...so I'm gonna just buy one pair at each size I hit, since I don't wear them for too too long.

Woo! 12!

Today so far I've had a SlimFast and a handful of sugar free Gummy Bears from Jelly Belly. Good god they're amazing. But my tummy just growled loud enough for the puppy to look up. Maybe I'll go into work a little earlier to grab a salad before I go on the floor. Boyfriend and I are going on another date night tonight, dinner and a movie. We'll probably end up going to our favorite Italian place, where I know I'll eat way too much, so I'll save up the calories. Maybe go without the chicken on my salad for lunch. Yesh, that sounds fine.

haha, for not knowing what I was talking about when I came into this post, I certainly wrote a whole lot.


PS. Hi Awshtin!

I worked out!

Yay! After a week of nothing, I worked out again. I walked the pup, ran half the lap of the lake with her, then went and biked and did the elliptical for like 45min.

I had a SlimFast for breakfast, a veggie salad with balsamic vinager (sp?) aaaaaaaaaand then I had a cheeseburger (the smallest one) at Fuddruckers and then a Coldstone creating (the smallest one)

I HAVE to get below 180 before the end of this month, or I think I WILL SlimFast myself into oblivion like dear Reno wants. (yeah, I read your post before I wrote mine. making sure I'm not the only one sucking.)

I gotta be at work at 830 tomorrow morning, soooo most likely NOT going in the morning. I'm gonna try to get off at 230 instead of 3 so I can go to the real gym before we go to the hockey game. Which might not happen, since Papa has to work all the time now, since one of his kids left them in a lurch. (papa = boyfriend, BTW)

OOh. Real World is getting dramatic. Totally not paying attention to writing this blog anymore.

Bottom line, I have 10days to get below 180, or else I go into crazy psyco weightloss mode. No particular reason, I just need the motivation.

Chicken Soup for Fat Asses

Time to break out my Chicken Soup for the Dieter's Soul. Everytime I'm discouraged or lazy, or just generally hard to motivate, I whip that puppy out to give me inspiration.

Speaking of puppy, she's the reason I haven't been to the gym. I don't want to leave her alone more than I have to, and since Sunday, Monday, Tues I work 9-4, I dont want to take the extra 2 hrs to drive up to the gym, work out, drive home, while she's stuck in the upstairs bathroom.

I think boyfriend has to stay later at work tonight, he didn't go in until like 8 today, instead of 6. So I'll come home, dust of my Bible of Slimness, take the puppy for a walk, and then have her hang out in the neighborhood gym with me while I sweat and work on feeling better.

Passing 180 is going to mean so much, because then I'll finally be under any weight I can remember in the past 5 years. While I have lost a whole lot in this venture so far, it's still like "oh yeah, I was that weight last year when I was depressed and semi-anorexic." Now I'm busting my ass, and calories are constantly on my mind trying to get below that.

My mom is opening a hard core pilates studio back home in Napa, and I'm really excited about it. It's pretty much a garanteed job for when I get back into town, and a fun new workout. True, my mom will be leading it, but I think we're past that.

Okay, time to walk puppy.

PS. Reno, stay motivated with me! We tend to slack together, and we're both hovering right above those big numbers. Lets kick some ass this week, okay? luv ya doll.

run dog, run!

Fun. We just took Al for her after-dinner walk, and the last quarter of our loop Papa and I started running with her. So much fun. Sure, I was in flip flops and loose jammies, but it felt really good to run with my Boyfriend and my doogie. Something I'd like to do more, little by little of course. Don't want to do anything to hurt pup.

181.2

Um, yeah. There's no explaining this, I'm not exactly sure whats going on. This was after having breakfast, before going potty, at my absolute fullest. AND I haven't been to the gym since Weds. But hey, I'll take it!

Ally Terrill

I dont know about her being a mix anymore. I know she's most definitely a Collie, and Boyfriend said that the pound people were saying she was mixed with something, but nothing on her papers says "mix".

Either way, she's the sweetest thing. A little underweight right now, but her appetite is comin back. Just gotta take her on lots of walks.

As for mama, those walks are the only exersice I've been getting since we've had her. True, it's only been a couple days, and it's been my "weekend" when I'm usually lazy, but still.

I don't know about the 160's anymore. I mean, I'll get there eventually, just a whole lot of stuff going on. I only have 5 wks before we move home, and I should really only lose about 10lbs in that time. I haven't weighed myself since I've had the puppy either, just eating more veggies and fruit.

Apparently, I can't go running with Al until she's 2 yrs old. It would mess up her hops and elbows and stuff to "go running" for long periods of time. Ah well. I've gotta teach her to fetch so I can run around atleast.

Hope all is well with everyone out there in our little weight loss community :)
Chels (and Ally.)

183.8

Well, that was yesterday. I haven't weighed myself this morning...

BECAUSE BOYFRIEND BROUGHT HOME A PUPPY!!!!!


Yay! Her name is Ally, she's 3mos old, and is a collie/beagle mix. Sweetest thing ever.


Oh, this fits right into my weightloss plan. Works with boyfriend, too. I take her for walks in the morning, and then after dinner we take her for a walk together...so she can poo and pee before bedtime, and so mama and papa can get their heartrates up a little bit.

She can't run with us yet...when we're walking, she insists on walking between my legs, or wrapping the leash around us ala 101 Dalmations.

Also, as you may have noticed, I'm back on track again. Under my previous lowest of 184.4, but it took a week and a half of yoyoing to 187 to get back under. It's okay. Atleast I'm not yoyoing with big numbers or anything.

Last night I went into my old restaurant to get some food, and everyone was amazed. I was wearing my black spandex capris from the Gap that have pretty much become my workout uniform, and a lame white Hanes tshirt, but everyone that knew me there was like "You lose weight? you look AWESOME"

Why yes I have. 17lbs.

Not even looking.

I need to get back on the diet and exercise hard core. I've gotta lose like 14lbs to get into the 160s by the time I get back to Napa in May, and I'm not gonna do it just goin to the gym a few times a week.

I know I love being with boyfriend when he's got a day off work, but I really need to go to the gym even when he's here. He won't come with me, which sucks, cuz then I would feel so much better if it was something we did together, make a competition out of it.

Oh, and apparently I'm not doing that 5k. Pretty sore subject.

Ah well, I'm off to work now, and the gym after that.

I need to buy more SlimFasts. Its when I run out that I get lazy, cuz I'm scrambling to find something for breakfast. Actually, I know Circle K has them....I better leave now then.

Love, peace, and NO chicken grease ;)

Chels

185.8

Sooooo I think I'm going to finally take advantage of my nerd-hotness, and be a sexy school girl for Halloween this year, since my body will actually fit the "sexy" part.

Also, I need to lay outside and tan, cuz the tanning bed is leaving weird tan lines. Like under my butt, and on the sides of my boobs. I tried flipping over onto my stomach, but I felt like a rotisserie chicken.

I've lost about 10 inches all over my body since January 19th. Nothing special about that day, except it was the day I went to the mall and Boyfriend wanted to buy me jeans, and nothing would fit. Remember?

Well yeah. About a inch and a half from my hips alone. Woo!

I think this extra weight is also cuz I did weights the other day, when I normally just do cardio. So adding some unexpected muscle boosted the number on the scale. But whatever, I feel great today.

Breakfast: cottage cheese cup, and 1 vine tomato
lunch: Salad with 3oz chicken, another half tomato, 1tbsp of rasberry vinagrette dressing (40cal) and a sprinkle of chz. Feeling very very full. Okay, I've also had a couple gummy candies, but I'm really craving a cookie or something.

Maybe I'll buy some lowcal cookies to have in the house. We'll see.

186.2

Poop.

I had a kinda crappy weekend, I got cocky after my 184.4 on Saturday morning, and then ate WAY too much food on Saturday. We're talkin' SlimFast, Sweet Tomatoes, Taco Bell, AND beer. Then Sunday I don't remember much except for my pot roast I made. I didn't go to the gym Sat-Mon, finally got back on Tuesday.

I'm kinda unmotivated right now. I need to eat so many more vegtables, and its just so hard, planning meals for two.

Ugh. I meant to post more, but I guess I didn't have too much to say.

I'm still going to try to get into the 160s by May.

For richer or poorer, for smaller or fatter.

So, boyfriend and I were talking last night, and I was like, "baby, look how little my wrist is!"

He goes, "I know honey, it's crazy," then he's quiet for a moment.

"I'm worried you're going to get all little and hot, and someone's gonna take you away from me."

Ahh, now it all makes sense. This is kinda related to the argument we were having the other night. Thing is, he's got nothin to worry about. Boyfriend and I met one another when were were at our heaviests...I was like 210/220 when we first started hooking up. He's my best friend. No matter what size I am, or what size he is, I know that there's true love there.

Thing is, even when I was heavier, much heavier, I was still super cocky, and still got plenty of attention from guys. Sure, there were the rude compliments with guys saying they like a "bigger gal"...ugh. Those are the worst. I just have always had a whole lot of confidence, and guys are attracted to it. Everytime I'm hit on, I come home and tell Boyfriend how demeaning they were.

Sure, as I lose weight, there's probably going to be more guys coming after me, since now society will consider me "hot", because I'll be a more attractive size. But no Brad Pitt is gonna steal me away from my man.

It kinda sucks, cuz he's been my biggest supporter in me losing weight, telling me not to eat a cookie cuz I don't really want it, giving me shit if I don't go to the gym. He's so proud of me, everyday when I tell him a lower number. But as much as he supports me like that, if he's gonna go around thinking just cuz I lose weight I'm going to leave him, it's not supportive at all. I don't want that distrust in my relationship, you know? I want to be hot for me, and for him. Not for anyone else. (I've told him all this, btw)

I'm losing weight to feel better about myself, to be healthy. NOT to catch a men's underwear model. I've been confident and sexy all along, just in a big girl's body. My boyfriend has been there all along, and he's the one for me. Just because my body changes, doesn't mean my heart will.

184.8

So, I didn't go to the gym all weekend...well, Saturday or Sunday. Does Friday coulnt as the weekend? Cuz I went on Friday. But not on Thursday.

Chances are, I'm not going to go tonight. Oh, why you may ask? Oh, I don't know, because my boyfriend's flight back was changed to Orlando, 2.5hrs away, and I found out at about 845pm.

Yeah. Oh and as if that wasn't fun enough! I took Boyfriend's car, since it's engine is more reliable than mine, and his fucking right front tire blew out. In the middle of Nowherefucksville.

So I changed the tire, which took like 30 minutes, and possibly a sprained wrist, and still ended up getting to the airport only about 20min after he flew in. Then the next 2.5hrs took forever, since we weren't talking, get home about 3am, argue a little bit, and then have makeup/welcomehome sex.

So now I'm fucking exhausted, and have to work a full shift today, and I feel like I've got the worst hangover ever. Probably from all that adrenaline that started pumping when the tire blew out.


UGhhhhhhhhhhh I dont wanna go. I dont have anymore SlimFasts either. Fuckyamother. This sucks.

184.4

Kinda crazy.

Anyway, I think it's time to start working some weights back into my routine. Maybe twice a week, after all my cardio, I'll do my usual stuff. Abs, legs, butt, arms.

I don't want to lose all this weight, and then have a ton of loose skin, you know? Gross.

I told Boyfriend my ass would be smaller by the time he got back. (he's gone this weekend til Sunday) He didn't believe me. He'll see :)

186.2

Almost 15 "ellbees" as a friend put it, and I can definitely feel the difference in my alcohol tolerance.

Best diet drink ever?

Absolut Pear Vodka and Diet Sprite. Zero Cal, amaaaazing taste.

186.6

Damn, I'm good.

I went to Old Navy today to buy a pair of jeans. I knew I would leave with a pair, even if they were size 16's. The bigger stores have all the sizes in stock.

Well!

Came home with TWO pairs of jeans, a jean skirt, and a few shirts just for fun, and they're all 14, slim fit, low waist.

And no muffin-topping or ass-cracking. They're not too tight at all, like where I'd normally say "Oh, I need to just break them in." I guess 5 lbs does make a difference, huh?

Luckily I got all of that for $140, so I didn't break the bank. I'll probably keep buying jeans from there until I decide I'm done losing weight. I'm losing it so fast, I don't want to spend $100 on one pair of jeans alone.

Ahh! I'm so close to 15lbs. This is ridiculous. I still kinda feel the same tho. Like when I look at my body, it's all the same shape, just smaller proportions. I can't wait to see a different silouette, and I think it's right around the corner :D

edit: After wearing my jeans to a hockey game, and not doing anything particularly active, I was pulling my NEW jeans up all night, because they kept falling down. Hah!

Trev cut off my head, but my body is bangin. All new clothes. Doesn't show my hot leopard heels tho :(

187.8

So, I lost a little bit in the last week. I went to the gym all the time, but my eating habits were pretty wack. We went to a bunch of events this weekend (hockey game, Blue Man Group, Justin Timberlake) and combined with working, I never really had a chance to eat properly. I didn't eat MUCH, but when I did, it wasn't very healthy.

So I took today off of work, and now I'm eating cottage cheese. (SlimFast is the only other thing I've had yet today.) I'm going down to a job fair to apply at Starbucks, and maybe Jamba. I don't know if I want to work for the same company as my boyfriend, but we'll see. Starbucks actually offered me a job this summer, but I had already moved back to Florida.

I'm just kinda over my job. The only rewarding thing about it is getting cash in my pocket every time a table gets up.

Anyway, I'm gonna go do that, and then go to the gym for a looong time. I've got plenty of aggression I need to get out (hello? I've been on my period for like two weeks.) Come home and deep deep clean my house, which will only burn more calories. I need to get past the 180s. Once I get down to the 170s, I'll actually feel like I'm losing weight, like Miss Reno said. This summer I was about 183 when I was on my carrots and peanut butter diet for two weeks. I honestly don't know when I was in the 170s.

Also, I'm moving home in May, and I want there to be a signifigant difference in my size. Like, people from high school will see me on the street, and be like, "Chelsea? No way! Florida was good to you!" (Which is has been, I suppose. Not good enough to stay.)

Sooooo I'm goin for 170 by May 1.

That's on 18lbs from here, and then I only have 20 more to lose to reach my birthday goal. We will seeeeee!

I'm bringin' sexy back.