Back from the dead

Hey guys.

I'm still right around the same weight, things have been kinda stressful with a new job, the new place, and of course, drum corps on the weekend. But, I'm getting back into it. I've been working out mostly everyday after work, for the past week, including today. I only have 4.5 months to lose my 30 pounds to get to 50, and I'm trying real hard again. I'm tanning out by the pool too, so I feel more confident about myself.

There's been some stuff recently that has made me kinda ashamed of my body, so I neglected it for a while. While compliments are nice, harrassment is not, and I've just wanted to cover everything up for the past few weeks.

Boyfriend is back on board with me as well. He doesn't like what he sees around his middle, and I am more than happy to help him out. Starting with healthy meals ,and smaller portions. While I can't control what he does at work, or how often he works out, I can do my part by making nutritious dinners for us.

I'm pretty exhausted all the time right now. We don't have a bed yet, so we've been sleeping on air mattresses that deflate during the night. Also, I've started working early shifts at Starbucks...like EARLY early 4am shifts. So I'll eat something on my "lunch" at 8am, and thats about it until dinner. I do my best to get drinks with 10 calories or less. (ie espresso or tea drinks with sugar-free sweetners.)

I am happy, I'm just still adjusting to our new life. But I think with some consistancy, like my working out everyday, things will get easier.

And I can always sleep when I'm dead, right?