I've been eating so much better this week, it's disgusting. I do love my Eating Right/Lean Cuisine/Smart Ones meals. I know they're technically "processed food", but if I feel satisfied w/ half the calories of a regular meal, crap, I'm going to do it. I'll get organic another day.
So, I've dropped two pounds, down to 188 which is killer. I went o the gym 3 times last week, but I haven't been since Tuesday. Work has been ridiculous. But you know what? I've been doing house work, sweeping, dishes, couch reupholstering, and man, being a house wife makes me break a sweat!
I need to be careful tho, my boss even said to me yesterday "you gotta stop burning the candle at both ends, girl" and it's so true. But, I love my life!
The only thing is, since I've gained this weight, my sex drive has dropped off, and boyfriend is feeling it. Anyone who knows me KNOWS this is not normal for me. In high school, I was the fat girl, BUT I was also the only one of my friends getting action, because I was so confident, regardless. I need to get back to that.
-C
Friday, March 6, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Kickboxing and pizza.
OKay, so I went to the gym last night. Thats three times in three weeks! Ugh. Better than the 2mo sabbatical I took during the holidays, right?
I really wanted to do this kickboxing class, but I got there early so I went on the bike for about 15min just to kinda warm things up. Got in the class, there's no punching bags or anything (lame). But, it is a cardio kickboxing, so what the hell.
Holy jesus, I only made it through like 20 min for the 60 min class. My feet were cramping up like NO OTHER, and I wanted to die. I was sweating (melting to the floor). I liked it, it was fun, and I felt like a strong, powerful woman...until I looked at myself in the mirror. The instructor was screaming "kick off that shake!" which really makes no sense to me, since anyone in their right ind knows that the fat isn't going to disappear from working a certain area.
I mean, okay, I liked it. But I don't know what was going on. They're newer shoes, they've been broken in, but I dunno. Maybe I need to run or jog around the building first. I punished myself for sitting in the sauna for like 20 min.
Then I came home and had a big plate of broccoli, followed by three slices of pizza. Nice.
This whole one-day a week thing at the gym is obviously not working for me. Duh. So I'm going to try and go tonight after work. No no no, I AM going to go tonight after work. "Never try, just do" type deal, right?
I really wanted to do this kickboxing class, but I got there early so I went on the bike for about 15min just to kinda warm things up. Got in the class, there's no punching bags or anything (lame). But, it is a cardio kickboxing, so what the hell.
Holy jesus, I only made it through like 20 min for the 60 min class. My feet were cramping up like NO OTHER, and I wanted to die. I was sweating (melting to the floor). I liked it, it was fun, and I felt like a strong, powerful woman...until I looked at myself in the mirror. The instructor was screaming "kick off that shake!" which really makes no sense to me, since anyone in their right ind knows that the fat isn't going to disappear from working a certain area.
I mean, okay, I liked it. But I don't know what was going on. They're newer shoes, they've been broken in, but I dunno. Maybe I need to run or jog around the building first. I punished myself for sitting in the sauna for like 20 min.
Then I came home and had a big plate of broccoli, followed by three slices of pizza. Nice.
This whole one-day a week thing at the gym is obviously not working for me. Duh. So I'm going to try and go tonight after work. No no no, I AM going to go tonight after work. "Never try, just do" type deal, right?
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Two months?
Okay, so I just realized my best friend's wedding is in two months. It literally was like "Okay, March to April, April to Mayyyyywwwhat???."
I thought I had forever for this!
I haven't been very good, I forgot my integral rule that I followed two years ago: half of every plate needs to be vegetables. I just am having such a hard time finding motivation to wake up, and work out, and eat right, blah blah blah. I mean, my life has been in transition the past few weeks with this move, but can't I just shut up and do it?
This weekend I worked really hard reframing my couch, to prepare it for re-covering, and I got a nice upper-body workout w/ all the sawing and hammering, but I haven't done shit since. It's Tuesday, and I've been sitting on my ass at a trade show all day. I was good at the lunch, half of my plate was a spinach salad w/ beets, and the other half was a couple pieces of chicken breast, but I HAVE to go to the gym in the morning.
I'm not going to be a fat cow at this wedding, I want my boyfriend to see me up there and envision us on OUR wedding day, and I want to be a bride happy with herself, not one wondering "what if I weighed 20lbs less".
I thought I had forever for this!
I haven't been very good, I forgot my integral rule that I followed two years ago: half of every plate needs to be vegetables. I just am having such a hard time finding motivation to wake up, and work out, and eat right, blah blah blah. I mean, my life has been in transition the past few weeks with this move, but can't I just shut up and do it?
This weekend I worked really hard reframing my couch, to prepare it for re-covering, and I got a nice upper-body workout w/ all the sawing and hammering, but I haven't done shit since. It's Tuesday, and I've been sitting on my ass at a trade show all day. I was good at the lunch, half of my plate was a spinach salad w/ beets, and the other half was a couple pieces of chicken breast, but I HAVE to go to the gym in the morning.
I'm not going to be a fat cow at this wedding, I want my boyfriend to see me up there and envision us on OUR wedding day, and I want to be a bride happy with herself, not one wondering "what if I weighed 20lbs less".
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Sick of Myself
Okay, so I'm back. This last week has been crazy with the move, and then I got really sick. Who would have thought I'd catch the flu when moving heavy furniture in torrential downpours? Go fig.
Anyway, I'm back. Amanda, sorry I've been slacking.
My new house has a full length mirror, and I can't TELL you how long it's been since I've see all of me in one "shot" if you will. Truth is, I don't look as terrible as I thought. That's motivation number one. I'm not a disgusting pig, I'm still curvy in the right places, and not a huge blob of fat. But, I still weigh 190, which is "obese" according to those charts. Ridic, since I don't look "obese" but whatev.That number is way too high for me, personally. I'd be stoked to be back at 164, my weight post-tour. I was still curvalicious me, but much healthier.
Gym tonight after work, and I have to be serious about it. I went last week, and I got a "welcome back!" that made me want to shoot myself, because I know they can tell exactly how long it had been since I was in. I mean, jeezy creezy, it's a free membership, I might as well use it.
After this one is done tho, I'm thinking I'm going to go to the gym a block from my house, it'll be easier, and I bet they're cheaper. I should look into that. I really want to do a kickboxing class too. That would be pretty effing sweet.
My BIGGEST problem is my self-control w/ food. In the mornings, and at work, I'm pretty good. It's when I get home that I suck. Last night was better, but like when I'm alone, and my mom brings me all my favorite snacks from when I was a kid, I just devour them, like I did when I was a kid. Worst one? French's French Fried Onions. You know, the stuff that goes on top of green bean casserole. The other night I ate a can of them. Bleh.
My whole office is getting in shape, one is on Weight Watchers, the other one wants to run more (used to be a long distance runner) and the third is getting back into the gym. They're the people I deal with more, and it's HUGE motivation. We need to all look hot, hah. I can't be the cute young thing if I look disgusting.
Bottom line, it's time. Again.
Anyway, I'm back. Amanda, sorry I've been slacking.
My new house has a full length mirror, and I can't TELL you how long it's been since I've see all of me in one "shot" if you will. Truth is, I don't look as terrible as I thought. That's motivation number one. I'm not a disgusting pig, I'm still curvy in the right places, and not a huge blob of fat. But, I still weigh 190, which is "obese" according to those charts. Ridic, since I don't look "obese" but whatev.That number is way too high for me, personally. I'd be stoked to be back at 164, my weight post-tour. I was still curvalicious me, but much healthier.
Gym tonight after work, and I have to be serious about it. I went last week, and I got a "welcome back!" that made me want to shoot myself, because I know they can tell exactly how long it had been since I was in. I mean, jeezy creezy, it's a free membership, I might as well use it.
After this one is done tho, I'm thinking I'm going to go to the gym a block from my house, it'll be easier, and I bet they're cheaper. I should look into that. I really want to do a kickboxing class too. That would be pretty effing sweet.
My BIGGEST problem is my self-control w/ food. In the mornings, and at work, I'm pretty good. It's when I get home that I suck. Last night was better, but like when I'm alone, and my mom brings me all my favorite snacks from when I was a kid, I just devour them, like I did when I was a kid. Worst one? French's French Fried Onions. You know, the stuff that goes on top of green bean casserole. The other night I ate a can of them. Bleh.
My whole office is getting in shape, one is on Weight Watchers, the other one wants to run more (used to be a long distance runner) and the third is getting back into the gym. They're the people I deal with more, and it's HUGE motivation. We need to all look hot, hah. I can't be the cute young thing if I look disgusting.
Bottom line, it's time. Again.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Fancy pants.
Okay, well now it's Monday after my Saturday night breakdown, and I think I'm going to be just fine. Sunday, Trev and I went to Ihop, and I was craving hashbrowns like crazy...but, I abstained, and got the healthy omelette with fruit...a couple hours later, I realized it wasn't the end of the world, I wasn't still craving the potato goodness.
Then, at dinner we went to Applebees (I know, eating out two times in one day, but we were running around all day) and I got the salmon, which was pretty amazing.
I didn't work out yet, it was raining this morning, and TJ was leaving for a week. But, tomorrow morning, I'm either running at the park, or at the gym.
I dressed really nice today, and I feel pretty. I think I need to keep looking good, clothes wise, so I feel good about myself, no matter what size. Only problem is, that involves heels, and I think my feet might fall off. We'll see.
Then, at dinner we went to Applebees (I know, eating out two times in one day, but we were running around all day) and I got the salmon, which was pretty amazing.
I didn't work out yet, it was raining this morning, and TJ was leaving for a week. But, tomorrow morning, I'm either running at the park, or at the gym.
I dressed really nice today, and I feel pretty. I think I need to keep looking good, clothes wise, so I feel good about myself, no matter what size. Only problem is, that involves heels, and I think my feet might fall off. We'll see.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
What the hell?
Here I am, two years after doing this whole weight loss thing, 5 months after being down to 164 (summer of drum corps) and I'm at 194 again.
And, the worst part? after I weighed myself, I went and ate three slices of cold pizza, plus some hot chocolate.
What am I doing to myself? The rest of my life is going so, so well. My relationship is great, my job is great, and we're getting ready to start a new life together in a new house. So why am I sabotaging myself?
Ugh, I feel disgusting. I'm not happy with how I look, how I feel in the morning... and right now, after the healthy dinner of chicken and green beans, plus those 3 cold slices, and the hot chocolate, I don't feel "full."
Yeah, that's right, I feel disgusting, but not full. I know I could eat the other two pieces of pizza left, and not throw up. At least, not involuntarily throw u
I need to make a change in my life, right now. I've been saying this since Jan 1, but I just, well, haven't.
This next week, I have to pack, and I have to work out. Those are my only priorities. Trevor is going to be gone all week, so I have no excuse to laze around in bed. I'll wake up early to work out, and pack into the night. No big, I can do it. Sure, AllieDog is going to suffer a bit, but if I take her over to the park while I run, she might be happier.
This is it, this is totally it. I need to figure out how not to do this anymore. How to maintain a healthy weight for me, without constantly feeling like I'm depriving myself, so that it's easy for me.
New house, new lifestyle, new me.
Again.
And, the worst part? after I weighed myself, I went and ate three slices of cold pizza, plus some hot chocolate.
What am I doing to myself? The rest of my life is going so, so well. My relationship is great, my job is great, and we're getting ready to start a new life together in a new house. So why am I sabotaging myself?
Ugh, I feel disgusting. I'm not happy with how I look, how I feel in the morning... and right now, after the healthy dinner of chicken and green beans, plus those 3 cold slices, and the hot chocolate, I don't feel "full."
Yeah, that's right, I feel disgusting, but not full. I know I could eat the other two pieces of pizza left, and not throw up. At least, not involuntarily throw u
I need to make a change in my life, right now. I've been saying this since Jan 1, but I just, well, haven't.
This next week, I have to pack, and I have to work out. Those are my only priorities. Trevor is going to be gone all week, so I have no excuse to laze around in bed. I'll wake up early to work out, and pack into the night. No big, I can do it. Sure, AllieDog is going to suffer a bit, but if I take her over to the park while I run, she might be happier.
This is it, this is totally it. I need to figure out how not to do this anymore. How to maintain a healthy weight for me, without constantly feeling like I'm depriving myself, so that it's easy for me.
New house, new lifestyle, new me.
Again.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Seriously? I'm over this whole "fat" thing.
Okay, so I just don't get it. I'm running, I'm eating well...and yet, I'm still gaining weight? I mean, it's been 15lbs in 3mo, this is ridiculous. It's back to Slimfast breakfasts and Lean Cuisine lunches, with Hydroxycut before every meal.
Oh, and does anybody know of a birth control that DOESN'T make me gain weight? Jesus. I'm currently on Levelen, but the generic brand.
BTW, my goal weight is 155. I wanna get there before move-in.
Oh, and does anybody know of a birth control that DOESN'T make me gain weight? Jesus. I'm currently on Levelen, but the generic brand.
BTW, my goal weight is 155. I wanna get there before move-in.
Monday, November 3, 2008
Okay, can I just say this please?
KEEP YOUR HANDS OFF THE BABIES.
Stop degrading the music education profession, and leave children under 18, or any students, ALONE.
There's been way too many of these happening, and FAR too many who I've known, or been close to.
That's it.
Stop degrading the music education profession, and leave children under 18, or any students, ALONE.
There's been way too many of these happening, and FAR too many who I've known, or been close to.
That's it.
Pukey.
Ugh. I think I got the motivation I need to change my diet. This weekend we made pot-roast, a pretty common winter dinner for us, and the next morning I woke up puking. I don't know if it's from the pot roast, or all the sodium I had that day, or whatever...but I know the next morning when I looked at the leftovers I had saved for myself in the fridge, they just looked grey and disgusting.
So, I had toast and eggs for breakfast, chicken noodle soup for lunch, and then Trev made Montery Chicken for Dinner. We had two breasts for each of us, but I was a good little girl and separated half my dinner onto a plate for me to have tomorrow night when Trev is at hockey.
I'm still feeling icky today, and no, I'm pretty sure I'm not pregnant, thank you.
I felt good enough to walk through Target this morning after Espanol, and jeez. I need clothes. I effing LOVE winter clothes. The jackets, the lace, the layering...and I'm at a normal enough size so that I'd actually look GOOD in these things! Ugh. Being broke blows. The good news is my credit is decent enough that I got a credit card! Low limit, and high interest rate, but it's enough to pay off a couple of closed accts. I'm pretty happy that my financial situation is clearing up. Maybe I can buy some clothes soon :) (With cash, not credit. I'm not an idiot.)
So, I had toast and eggs for breakfast, chicken noodle soup for lunch, and then Trev made Montery Chicken for Dinner. We had two breasts for each of us, but I was a good little girl and separated half my dinner onto a plate for me to have tomorrow night when Trev is at hockey.
I'm still feeling icky today, and no, I'm pretty sure I'm not pregnant, thank you.
I felt good enough to walk through Target this morning after Espanol, and jeez. I need clothes. I effing LOVE winter clothes. The jackets, the lace, the layering...and I'm at a normal enough size so that I'd actually look GOOD in these things! Ugh. Being broke blows. The good news is my credit is decent enough that I got a credit card! Low limit, and high interest rate, but it's enough to pay off a couple of closed accts. I'm pretty happy that my financial situation is clearing up. Maybe I can buy some clothes soon :) (With cash, not credit. I'm not an idiot.)
Thursday, October 30, 2008
178
Okay, so last night Trevor made me Ms. Amana Jambalaya. And it was amazing. So amazing, I had two bowls of it, and THEN a piece of pie. (I guess pumpkin was on sale.)
So, that's my weakness. Winter foods. Carbs. Actually, all food in general. I effing love it. I don't eat a lot of fast-food crap, and when I do, I eat the best thing they have on the menu. I'm a foodie, and I love to taste. Problem is, when we cook, it's typically recipies for 4. I packup leftovers for work the next day, but typically there's more for me to snack on.
Trev had a Sharks game again tonight (and the boys KILLED it), and I got off work early, so I got to spend a good 90min at the gym today. Same strategy as last time, run a fast mile, lift, do elliptical for 25min to get cardio back up, and get rid of that latic acid that makes me hurt the next morning.
I've been talking to some people (Tim, Lauren) and we're working on keeping each other accountable. Lauren is a beast, and actually, Tim ran multiple miles his first day back to the gym, so I guess its more keeping me feeling guilty if I DON'T go to the gym.
I need to change my BC Rx. Get lower Estrogen, or something. This weight gain is retarded. But, until then, it's only going to be hard work.
So, that's my weakness. Winter foods. Carbs. Actually, all food in general. I effing love it. I don't eat a lot of fast-food crap, and when I do, I eat the best thing they have on the menu. I'm a foodie, and I love to taste. Problem is, when we cook, it's typically recipies for 4. I packup leftovers for work the next day, but typically there's more for me to snack on.
Trev had a Sharks game again tonight (and the boys KILLED it), and I got off work early, so I got to spend a good 90min at the gym today. Same strategy as last time, run a fast mile, lift, do elliptical for 25min to get cardio back up, and get rid of that latic acid that makes me hurt the next morning.
I've been talking to some people (Tim, Lauren) and we're working on keeping each other accountable. Lauren is a beast, and actually, Tim ran multiple miles his first day back to the gym, so I guess its more keeping me feeling guilty if I DON'T go to the gym.
I need to change my BC Rx. Get lower Estrogen, or something. This weight gain is retarded. But, until then, it's only going to be hard work.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Total champ.
Okay, so I didn't get up this morning and go to the gym at 5:30.
I suck.
I DID go to the gym tho! Just after work. I like it then. I like it in the morning too. Actually, I pretty much love the gym. Just a matter of remembering that at 5am.
I ran a quick (for me) mile, at 7mph. It's about an 8.5min mile. Then I did a bunch of machines...the thigh one where you work both inner and outer thigh (great for my hip flexor), leg press (they have two different ones...one where you push yourself away, and one where you push the platform away.). Then the ab one where you bring your knees to your elbows, leg lifts for my belly boobs, and side crunches on the back extension bench thingy. Then some arm stuff. Then back to the abs for another round.
Then I did the elliptical for 20min, burned over 200cal on that, then did a half-mile jog to warm down. (mph) Came home, and sauteed two zucchini, half a package of mushrooms, and a chicken breast in some salt, pepper, garlic, and 0-cal spray butter.
Hopefully I won't be too sore tomorrow, since I ran and ellipticalled after I did weight stuff. I'll take an advil with water before bed. BECAUUUSSSE tomorrow is hour-long boot camp at 5:30am. Eff.
Oh, and I'm trying to eat 1300 cal a day. Well, when I say "I'm trying", I mean I just started today. And I'm over by 10%,(calories only, not deducting any for working out) but I definitely see where I can cut that out. Like the two cookies I had before work.
Yeah. Not so bueno.
I suck.
I DID go to the gym tho! Just after work. I like it then. I like it in the morning too. Actually, I pretty much love the gym. Just a matter of remembering that at 5am.
I ran a quick (for me) mile, at 7mph. It's about an 8.5min mile. Then I did a bunch of machines...the thigh one where you work both inner and outer thigh (great for my hip flexor), leg press (they have two different ones...one where you push yourself away, and one where you push the platform away.). Then the ab one where you bring your knees to your elbows, leg lifts for my belly boobs, and side crunches on the back extension bench thingy. Then some arm stuff. Then back to the abs for another round.
Then I did the elliptical for 20min, burned over 200cal on that, then did a half-mile jog to warm down. (mph) Came home, and sauteed two zucchini, half a package of mushrooms, and a chicken breast in some salt, pepper, garlic, and 0-cal spray butter.
Hopefully I won't be too sore tomorrow, since I ran and ellipticalled after I did weight stuff. I'll take an advil with water before bed. BECAUUUSSSE tomorrow is hour-long boot camp at 5:30am. Eff.
Oh, and I'm trying to eat 1300 cal a day. Well, when I say "I'm trying", I mean I just started today. And I'm over by 10%,(calories only, not deducting any for working out) but I definitely see where I can cut that out. Like the two cookies I had before work.
Yeah. Not so bueno.
Monday, October 27, 2008
Oh yeah, it's that time again
Oh HELLO SkinnyChels. How are you? It's been so long.
Well, folks, it's that time again. Auditions. The summer with SCV was amazing, and I got down to 164lbs, two days after tour. But then silly me started taking birth control again after a 3mo hiatus, and wasn't working out 12hrs a day, so I put on 15lbs.
I've been to the gym a couple times a week for the past month, and managed to lose about 5lbs of that 15. I'm working on faster running, versus running just for a long time. I can job at 5mph for 30min, easy. So, I'm starting at 7mph for a mile, then some elliptical for 20-30min to keep up my heartrate. Work on my cardio endurance without actually running a million miles to kill my leg.
Oh right, my leg. During movein, I tore my left-hip flexor, which let me tell you, hurts like no other. You can't walk, you can't sleep, let alone march all day long. But, my good friends, ibuprofen and ice, helped me get through it. Now it;s just an inconvenient ache. The only plus side is that I don't pay as much attention to my aching knees.
I'm writing today because audition camp is soon upon us. (a month exactly this week) And, even tho I got WAY little for me, I was still the biggest girl in the hornline. (I wasn't for a while in move-ins, but then the other Lauren went home. Oh darn.) And, I'm kinda over that. Another girl in the sop line kinda amazed me...we entered at about the same size, but she was running 5mi a day in the spring season, and never dropped out of running block once. She annoyed me sometimes in her perfection, but ultimately I love her, and was envious of her dedication.
So, that's going to be me this season. It's my age-out year, my 6th year of drum corps...I'd love to get a routine going that I can maintain AFTER the season. I eat pretty decent, but there's definitely room for improvement.
I'm not exactly worried about being cut, but I do want to make a personal statement when I see everybody again after 3mo. So, starting tomorrow morning, I'm at the gym at 5:30. There's a class, Mon-Fri, at that time. Different everyday, but all interest me. Then, I have about an hour to do running or whatever else I feel I need to do to accomplish my drum-corps style conditioning.
Sooooo lets go!
Well, folks, it's that time again. Auditions. The summer with SCV was amazing, and I got down to 164lbs, two days after tour. But then silly me started taking birth control again after a 3mo hiatus, and wasn't working out 12hrs a day, so I put on 15lbs.
I've been to the gym a couple times a week for the past month, and managed to lose about 5lbs of that 15. I'm working on faster running, versus running just for a long time. I can job at 5mph for 30min, easy. So, I'm starting at 7mph for a mile, then some elliptical for 20-30min to keep up my heartrate. Work on my cardio endurance without actually running a million miles to kill my leg.
Oh right, my leg. During movein, I tore my left-hip flexor, which let me tell you, hurts like no other. You can't walk, you can't sleep, let alone march all day long. But, my good friends, ibuprofen and ice, helped me get through it. Now it;s just an inconvenient ache. The only plus side is that I don't pay as much attention to my aching knees.
I'm writing today because audition camp is soon upon us. (a month exactly this week) And, even tho I got WAY little for me, I was still the biggest girl in the hornline. (I wasn't for a while in move-ins, but then the other Lauren went home. Oh darn.) And, I'm kinda over that. Another girl in the sop line kinda amazed me...we entered at about the same size, but she was running 5mi a day in the spring season, and never dropped out of running block once. She annoyed me sometimes in her perfection, but ultimately I love her, and was envious of her dedication.
So, that's going to be me this season. It's my age-out year, my 6th year of drum corps...I'd love to get a routine going that I can maintain AFTER the season. I eat pretty decent, but there's definitely room for improvement.
I'm not exactly worried about being cut, but I do want to make a personal statement when I see everybody again after 3mo. So, starting tomorrow morning, I'm at the gym at 5:30. There's a class, Mon-Fri, at that time. Different everyday, but all interest me. Then, I have about an hour to do running or whatever else I feel I need to do to accomplish my drum-corps style conditioning.
Sooooo lets go!
Friday, April 18, 2008
100th post!!
100th post, not 100lbs. But it's alright, I didn't have 100lbs to lose anyway :)
So, my fruit flush diet went REALLY well. I'm typically not into fad diets, or quick fix diets, but this one really worked for me. It was three days of dieting, broken up into two distinct eating styles. The first day was a total of 32oz of water and 1.5C of unsweetened protein mix, broken up into 5 "meals" in the first day, one 6oz glass of the mix every two hours. Then, at dinner on the first day, I was allowed a HUGE salad w/ a little bit of meat, and a dressing of olive oil and lemon juice. This was to prepare my body for the next two days, which consisted of again, 5 meals every 2 hours, 100 cal worth of fruit. Then, at dinner, another big salad, same dressing, no meat, and a protein drink.
I did really well, had one half of a cookie on the second day, but all in all lost 9lbs! The last two weeks I gained 10lbs, from eating like shit, not working out, and the crappy food staying in my stomach.
So now, I know the weight loss got me down to my "coasting" weight, I guess. When I'm simply maintaining, and not losing. But now I feel really clean, and I want to keep feeling liek that, also, 9lbs lighter and more energy gives me the push to get out and work out, since I don't feel like a fat bloated pig anymore.
From now until tour, which is a MONTH away, I'm just going on a really low fat, high cardio weight loss plan. I'm still set on my goal of 150, but 15lbs is a lot to lose. I mean, regardless, I'm going to lose a TON of weight on tour, and eat 4 full carbalicious meals a day on tour. I HAVE to, to survive. We're likely eating 3000cal a day on tour, to make up for the 14hr rehearsals, running around in the sun all day.
Here's the thing. My body is more prepared than it ever has been going into a drum corps tour. I mean, in 2005, I called my mom and asked her to mail me a pair of size 14 jeans, which I wasn't able to fit into until Allentown (mid way thru tour, for you non-drum corps folks). Now, heading into all-days, I'm wearing a size 8, and I'm STILL one of the bigger girls in the corps. (There's beer-drinking boys who are bigger than me, but most of the girls with weight on them are naturally little, just with some belly from the offseason.) I promised myself I'd never EVER drop out of running block, like I have in years past. Everyone has when they were just starting out. So far, I have never dropped out, or walked with Vanguard. I trust this staff, and know they won't push us farther than we're physically capable of. They'll push us to that limit, for SURE! But not a step past. I don't fear getting hurt, especially being in the shape I am.
The first week of all-day rehearsals consists of two block days: first 4hr block is all conditioning, and the next is marching basics. I expect to lose, oh, 10lbs that first week. No joke.
Thanks to everyone who keeps reading this, I know it has slowed down since my inital progress last year. With me, I think maintaining a healthy weight is always going to be a conscious effort with me, not necessarily a struggle, but something that I'll always have to focus on. Let's be honest, I love food. But I like feeling good about myself, better :)
So, my fruit flush diet went REALLY well. I'm typically not into fad diets, or quick fix diets, but this one really worked for me. It was three days of dieting, broken up into two distinct eating styles. The first day was a total of 32oz of water and 1.5C of unsweetened protein mix, broken up into 5 "meals" in the first day, one 6oz glass of the mix every two hours. Then, at dinner on the first day, I was allowed a HUGE salad w/ a little bit of meat, and a dressing of olive oil and lemon juice. This was to prepare my body for the next two days, which consisted of again, 5 meals every 2 hours, 100 cal worth of fruit. Then, at dinner, another big salad, same dressing, no meat, and a protein drink.
I did really well, had one half of a cookie on the second day, but all in all lost 9lbs! The last two weeks I gained 10lbs, from eating like shit, not working out, and the crappy food staying in my stomach.
So now, I know the weight loss got me down to my "coasting" weight, I guess. When I'm simply maintaining, and not losing. But now I feel really clean, and I want to keep feeling liek that, also, 9lbs lighter and more energy gives me the push to get out and work out, since I don't feel like a fat bloated pig anymore.
From now until tour, which is a MONTH away, I'm just going on a really low fat, high cardio weight loss plan. I'm still set on my goal of 150, but 15lbs is a lot to lose. I mean, regardless, I'm going to lose a TON of weight on tour, and eat 4 full carbalicious meals a day on tour. I HAVE to, to survive. We're likely eating 3000cal a day on tour, to make up for the 14hr rehearsals, running around in the sun all day.
Here's the thing. My body is more prepared than it ever has been going into a drum corps tour. I mean, in 2005, I called my mom and asked her to mail me a pair of size 14 jeans, which I wasn't able to fit into until Allentown (mid way thru tour, for you non-drum corps folks). Now, heading into all-days, I'm wearing a size 8, and I'm STILL one of the bigger girls in the corps. (There's beer-drinking boys who are bigger than me, but most of the girls with weight on them are naturally little, just with some belly from the offseason.) I promised myself I'd never EVER drop out of running block, like I have in years past. Everyone has when they were just starting out. So far, I have never dropped out, or walked with Vanguard. I trust this staff, and know they won't push us farther than we're physically capable of. They'll push us to that limit, for SURE! But not a step past. I don't fear getting hurt, especially being in the shape I am.
The first week of all-day rehearsals consists of two block days: first 4hr block is all conditioning, and the next is marching basics. I expect to lose, oh, 10lbs that first week. No joke.
Thanks to everyone who keeps reading this, I know it has slowed down since my inital progress last year. With me, I think maintaining a healthy weight is always going to be a conscious effort with me, not necessarily a struggle, but something that I'll always have to focus on. Let's be honest, I love food. But I like feeling good about myself, better :)
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Fruit Flush...for real
So, I start my Jay Robb fruit flush today...it's a three day thing, and the name of the diet is a bit deceptive. Today I'll be drinking nothing but whey protein in water, and a huge salad w/ 3-6oz of lean meat later for dinner. Then, tomorrow and the next day is all fruit.
I'm tired right now, so I'm not SUPER looking forward to this. Boyfriend left today for almost a week... WGI Finals, and then Renegades camp. So, it's the perfect time for me to do this, without the distraction of having to feed someone else dinner while I'm fasting.
We'll see how it goes. My sister lost 10lbs on it, and it really motivated her to keep losing...has lost something like 50-60lbs since the fall. True, she also smokes, and went through a break-up, but she looks amazing, regardless.
I just remembered that I'm an extra in a drum corps movie on Thursday, way out in Santa Clara, and that's my last day on the fast. I'll be stocking right up on a ton of fruit to get me through the day, so I don't pig out on the craft service.
Okay. Time to make my icky whey protein drink, the first of like 8 to get me through the day. Bleh.
I'm tired right now, so I'm not SUPER looking forward to this. Boyfriend left today for almost a week... WGI Finals, and then Renegades camp. So, it's the perfect time for me to do this, without the distraction of having to feed someone else dinner while I'm fasting.
We'll see how it goes. My sister lost 10lbs on it, and it really motivated her to keep losing...has lost something like 50-60lbs since the fall. True, she also smokes, and went through a break-up, but she looks amazing, regardless.
I just remembered that I'm an extra in a drum corps movie on Thursday, way out in Santa Clara, and that's my last day on the fast. I'll be stocking right up on a ton of fruit to get me through the day, so I don't pig out on the craft service.
Okay. Time to make my icky whey protein drink, the first of like 8 to get me through the day. Bleh.
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
175.4
This is good, because between the last post and now, I got up to 180 again. I was laid off this past month, and I really lost all motivation. Not to mention losing my gym membership. With job hunting, and then finding a new job, I really didn't work out at all, and ate like crap again.
Not anymore, however. I've lost 5lbs in the past week and a half. I dropped three last week, maintained my weight during camp (I usually come back weighing MORE), and have dropped two since Monday.
My goal is to lose 15lbs before move-in on May 16th, which I believe is entirely possible. I'm doing cardio 4-5x a week, and Pilates 3x. Recent cardio has been with the puppy, taking her running on hills around my area, and today we're going up to the dog park.
So. This week has been successful. And now I have drum corps spring training coming up very very soon, and I can't show up unprepared, and dying after running a mile.
Not anymore, however. I've lost 5lbs in the past week and a half. I dropped three last week, maintained my weight during camp (I usually come back weighing MORE), and have dropped two since Monday.
My goal is to lose 15lbs before move-in on May 16th, which I believe is entirely possible. I'm doing cardio 4-5x a week, and Pilates 3x. Recent cardio has been with the puppy, taking her running on hills around my area, and today we're going up to the dog park.
So. This week has been successful. And now I have drum corps spring training coming up very very soon, and I can't show up unprepared, and dying after running a mile.
Saturday, March 1, 2008
173.0
Oof, it's been a long time since I was in here. Sorry about that, life is really busy.
I had camp last weekend, and it was amazing! Everything we did, I was able to do, without dying/puking afterwards. I was actually EXCITED about the lunges across the floor, since I do those with 10lb weights.
I was really depressed for a while about my weight. From BD auditions in November, to about three weeks ago, I gained 10lbs. No bueno. But in the past three weeks, I've dropped back down to 173, and don't really see an end in sight. I have a healthy gym regimen; I'm there about 4-5x a week.
I'll do 20min of running, starting at 6mph, then bumping it up every 5min .2mph. Then I'll do weight lifting/strength training for 30min, either focusing on abs and arms/shoulders/back, or abs and butt/legs. Always abs, heh. The top part of my tummy is nice and flat, it's just right below my belly button I have what I call my "belly boobs." The basically looks like a small hill, divided by the line that a happy trail would follow.
It's pretty much my worst problem zone. I've come to terms with my arms, they'll get smaller as I lose the fat from around the guns I have down there. My butt/thighs used to be one, but I've come to terms with that area, and I happen to like that shape. Just have it be smaller, proportionately. Heh.
So I've been doing Pilates, and eating less fat, and crunches that target the lower ab area, on top of my cardio and everything else. I'm sure it'll be my last thing that I'll always complain about...I just wanna wear lower rise jeans, for god's sake! Wear a bathing suit without having to pull it up to my belly button! (Which, I never do, just feel like I should.)
In other news, yesterday I look all the dogs to the dog park for about an hour, and I already have my sports bra tan line back. WTF.
I had camp last weekend, and it was amazing! Everything we did, I was able to do, without dying/puking afterwards. I was actually EXCITED about the lunges across the floor, since I do those with 10lb weights.
I was really depressed for a while about my weight. From BD auditions in November, to about three weeks ago, I gained 10lbs. No bueno. But in the past three weeks, I've dropped back down to 173, and don't really see an end in sight. I have a healthy gym regimen; I'm there about 4-5x a week.
I'll do 20min of running, starting at 6mph, then bumping it up every 5min .2mph. Then I'll do weight lifting/strength training for 30min, either focusing on abs and arms/shoulders/back, or abs and butt/legs. Always abs, heh. The top part of my tummy is nice and flat, it's just right below my belly button I have what I call my "belly boobs." The basically looks like a small hill, divided by the line that a happy trail would follow.
It's pretty much my worst problem zone. I've come to terms with my arms, they'll get smaller as I lose the fat from around the guns I have down there. My butt/thighs used to be one, but I've come to terms with that area, and I happen to like that shape. Just have it be smaller, proportionately. Heh.
So I've been doing Pilates, and eating less fat, and crunches that target the lower ab area, on top of my cardio and everything else. I'm sure it'll be my last thing that I'll always complain about...I just wanna wear lower rise jeans, for god's sake! Wear a bathing suit without having to pull it up to my belly button! (Which, I never do, just feel like I should.)
In other news, yesterday I look all the dogs to the dog park for about an hour, and I already have my sports bra tan line back. WTF.
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Chelsea loves the Sierras :)
Ah, I had such a great day today. Boyfriend, his BFF, and I woke up at 4:30 (!!!) to drive up to Sugarbowl. We didn't get there until, oh 8:30ish, but thats because we left late, and then SOMEONE left her phone at home. Oops.
Anyway, BF's BFF has NEVER been snowboarding, so luckily the slopes were still empty when we arrived. We took him down a couple runs, until he got the swing of things, and then BF and I took a long run on our own.
I'm not too too good at boarding, but I'm decent. My big problem is carving with the front side (toe side) of the board.It just freaks my out. So, going on this tree-lined run before lunch, I figured "hey, it's slow enough, noone's around, lets figure this toe-turn out." Then I fell forward, overcompensated, and fell backwards, smacking the back of my skull on snow, about 2-3in of snow, covering a rock. Es no bueno.
Anyway, I hate being a whiny baby when we're boarding, so I used BF's BFF as an excuse, and said we should break for lunch. They had some awesome burgers grills backyard-bbq style out on the deck, and it was such a beautiful day, I couldn't refuse the atmosphere. After lunch, I felt better, and then really got my workout. Apparently my favorite run was turned into a race course today, which means it was closed to the public. Fine, whatever. But maybe you could tell me BEFORE I get halfway down the mountain? Haha, whatever, because I just made my own path in some thick powder. Killer on my thighs!
I like the fruit diet someone commented in the last blog sounds TASTY. I'm going to start it tomorrow. I can still make semi-normal meals for me and BF, and perhaps just smaller portions for me? Yes. (Sorry, I don't remember your name, and I always seem to lose my blogs when I navigate away. But this is me, calling you out, saying you're awesome.)
Also, I'm going to talk to my trainer girl (aka, the one who's paid to be a trainer @ my gym, but is super cool and helps me as well. for free.) tomorrow. I gotta figure out a workout program for myself, cuz what I'm doing isn't working, and I'm busting my ass. However, I DID figure out a great crunch for lower abs, which happen to be the bane of my existence. But then I was watching Biggest Loser, and they were doing them. I still say they stole them from me...
ANYWAY, back to boarding.
I LOVE getting out there on the hill, in the quiet. Especially at Sugarbowl. It's just so MASSIVE, that you feel like it's your own private trail you just happened to find, perfectly groomed. I've had a rough week, as BF and I are trying to handle pushing the pause button on our life for three months, and it just felt really good to just carve some snow, and look bad ass.
Vanguard camp in TWO weekends :D
Anyway, BF's BFF has NEVER been snowboarding, so luckily the slopes were still empty when we arrived. We took him down a couple runs, until he got the swing of things, and then BF and I took a long run on our own.
I'm not too too good at boarding, but I'm decent. My big problem is carving with the front side (toe side) of the board.It just freaks my out. So, going on this tree-lined run before lunch, I figured "hey, it's slow enough, noone's around, lets figure this toe-turn out." Then I fell forward, overcompensated, and fell backwards, smacking the back of my skull on snow, about 2-3in of snow, covering a rock. Es no bueno.
Anyway, I hate being a whiny baby when we're boarding, so I used BF's BFF as an excuse, and said we should break for lunch. They had some awesome burgers grills backyard-bbq style out on the deck, and it was such a beautiful day, I couldn't refuse the atmosphere. After lunch, I felt better, and then really got my workout. Apparently my favorite run was turned into a race course today, which means it was closed to the public. Fine, whatever. But maybe you could tell me BEFORE I get halfway down the mountain? Haha, whatever, because I just made my own path in some thick powder. Killer on my thighs!
I like the fruit diet someone commented in the last blog sounds TASTY. I'm going to start it tomorrow. I can still make semi-normal meals for me and BF, and perhaps just smaller portions for me? Yes. (Sorry, I don't remember your name, and I always seem to lose my blogs when I navigate away. But this is me, calling you out, saying you're awesome.)
Also, I'm going to talk to my trainer girl (aka, the one who's paid to be a trainer @ my gym, but is super cool and helps me as well. for free.) tomorrow. I gotta figure out a workout program for myself, cuz what I'm doing isn't working, and I'm busting my ass. However, I DID figure out a great crunch for lower abs, which happen to be the bane of my existence. But then I was watching Biggest Loser, and they were doing them. I still say they stole them from me...
ANYWAY, back to boarding.
I LOVE getting out there on the hill, in the quiet. Especially at Sugarbowl. It's just so MASSIVE, that you feel like it's your own private trail you just happened to find, perfectly groomed. I've had a rough week, as BF and I are trying to handle pushing the pause button on our life for three months, and it just felt really good to just carve some snow, and look bad ass.
Vanguard camp in TWO weekends :D
Friday, February 8, 2008
Fatty
Sooo I don't know what's happened.
The day before Christmas, I weighed 170lbs. The day AFTER Christmas, we went snowboarding. Plenty of activity to burn some major calories, right?
Today, I weighed 180lbs.
The last three weeks, I've worked out 5-6 days a week, with 30min of cardio at LEAST each time.
Also, my eating has not changed. If anything, I'm eating significantly less fast-food and other crap than I have in recent months.
So what gives? Thats a WHOLE lot of weight to gain, and while I'm getting pretty ripped, there's still flabbiness on me, so I can't say it's all muscle weight.
I don't understand, and I'm pretty depressed about it. I'm tempted to do a fruit-flush, and three days later start form zero, but it's hard to commit to that, and then make my boyfriend something else for dinner. Bah.
Today I've had:
Homemade breakfast sandwich: 1 whole wheat english muffin, one egg, one slice of canadian bacon, one slice of cheese
one can pears
30 stick pretzels
one can tuna
tonight, we'll probably go out to dinner, and I'll do what I usually do: lean protein (chix, or fish) and make sure they give me a vegetable, NOT bathed in butter.
I don't know. I'm completely perplexed. Perhaps I used to eat too little, and now my metabolism is all jacked, but ugh. It's frustrating.
The day before Christmas, I weighed 170lbs. The day AFTER Christmas, we went snowboarding. Plenty of activity to burn some major calories, right?
Today, I weighed 180lbs.
The last three weeks, I've worked out 5-6 days a week, with 30min of cardio at LEAST each time.
Also, my eating has not changed. If anything, I'm eating significantly less fast-food and other crap than I have in recent months.
So what gives? Thats a WHOLE lot of weight to gain, and while I'm getting pretty ripped, there's still flabbiness on me, so I can't say it's all muscle weight.
I don't understand, and I'm pretty depressed about it. I'm tempted to do a fruit-flush, and three days later start form zero, but it's hard to commit to that, and then make my boyfriend something else for dinner. Bah.
Today I've had:
Homemade breakfast sandwich: 1 whole wheat english muffin, one egg, one slice of canadian bacon, one slice of cheese
one can pears
30 stick pretzels
one can tuna
tonight, we'll probably go out to dinner, and I'll do what I usually do: lean protein (chix, or fish) and make sure they give me a vegetable, NOT bathed in butter.
I don't know. I'm completely perplexed. Perhaps I used to eat too little, and now my metabolism is all jacked, but ugh. It's frustrating.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Getting busy
So I haven't been to the gym since Friday, and I feel like a lazy butt. True, I went to Pilates on Saturday, but no cardio. I made the mistake of getting on the scale after dinner tonight, and that number SCARED me. However, my body definitely looks slimmer, and I have to chalk it up to muscle building.
I HAVE to do these 6am mornings. I don't have any other time! Luckily, my girl V at work is thinking about coming to the gym with me then. She just had a baby, and is ready to start losing. She's up at that time anyway, and getting up at 5am shouldn't be hard for me. I used to have to be to work at 4am when I was working at Starbucks!
I also need to get my trumpet upstairs. I've been looking at my music (especially Clowns) but I haven't played. I have three weeks before camp, but I shouldn't get lazy with it. I'm going to schedule my wisdom teeth to be pulled pretty much RIGHT after February camp. That should give me plenty of time before the next camp to recover.
Special thanks to Lynda for another tuition donation :) She's my best friend's mommy, and really didn't have to :)
I HAVE to do these 6am mornings. I don't have any other time! Luckily, my girl V at work is thinking about coming to the gym with me then. She just had a baby, and is ready to start losing. She's up at that time anyway, and getting up at 5am shouldn't be hard for me. I used to have to be to work at 4am when I was working at Starbucks!
I also need to get my trumpet upstairs. I've been looking at my music (especially Clowns) but I haven't played. I have three weeks before camp, but I shouldn't get lazy with it. I'm going to schedule my wisdom teeth to be pulled pretty much RIGHT after February camp. That should give me plenty of time before the next camp to recover.
Special thanks to Lynda for another tuition donation :) She's my best friend's mommy, and really didn't have to :)
Saturday, February 2, 2008
Yay!
So I received my first sponsorship today, from Patricia in Washington. Very very VERY cool. Thanks!!
Also, my friend Rachael has offered to donate 20% of her PureRomance sales to me, if you mention my name. It's linked in this post, and I also have something in the side bar. It's really cool company that sells a bunch of romantic gifts. Valentines Day IS right around the corner!
Today I skipped my cardio workout, and instead ran around town. Wasn't too easy in the rain, but my car kept me dry, haha. I did do a one-on-one at my mom's Pilate's studio for about 90min, which would make my second impromptu personal training session this week. It felt good to loosen up all the muscles that my cardio tightens.
Mom also took me to Target and bought me a cute workout outfit, AND I got a Fuerza tank while I was at her studio. I think that after I get back from tour, I'm going to start training to be a certified Pilates instructor. It'll keep me in shape, and it can always be a source of income. Also, I'll probably take a year or so off from school after I finish my pre-chiro education (possibly a BA in Kinesiology) and I can teach while I save up money.
Pilates is so awesome, and it compliments Chiropractic. It's all about strengthening your core and spine, and it's all focused around posture! We're actually planning on opening my clinic once I graduate from LifeWest, and having mom's Pilates studio share the space. Keep everything in the family, huh?
I've got quite an exciting future ahead of me, I just need to remember to enjoy the things going on right now! So, in that ilk, I will now go watch some trash TV with my dog. :)
Also, my friend Rachael has offered to donate 20% of her PureRomance sales to me, if you mention my name. It's linked in this post, and I also have something in the side bar. It's really cool company that sells a bunch of romantic gifts. Valentines Day IS right around the corner!
Today I skipped my cardio workout, and instead ran around town. Wasn't too easy in the rain, but my car kept me dry, haha. I did do a one-on-one at my mom's Pilate's studio for about 90min, which would make my second impromptu personal training session this week. It felt good to loosen up all the muscles that my cardio tightens.
Mom also took me to Target and bought me a cute workout outfit, AND I got a Fuerza tank while I was at her studio. I think that after I get back from tour, I'm going to start training to be a certified Pilates instructor. It'll keep me in shape, and it can always be a source of income. Also, I'll probably take a year or so off from school after I finish my pre-chiro education (possibly a BA in Kinesiology) and I can teach while I save up money.
Pilates is so awesome, and it compliments Chiropractic. It's all about strengthening your core and spine, and it's all focused around posture! We're actually planning on opening my clinic once I graduate from LifeWest, and having mom's Pilates studio share the space. Keep everything in the family, huh?
I've got quite an exciting future ahead of me, I just need to remember to enjoy the things going on right now! So, in that ilk, I will now go watch some trash TV with my dog. :)
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