Out if nowhere...

I lost 4 lbs int he past week. The gym just isn't happening for me at the moment, so I had to make another change.

I started eating breakfast.

I know! Crazy, right? But it keeps me full throughout the day, and then when dinner comes, I'm not starving like usual. (which means plenty of leftovers for lunch the next day, which saves money AND calories. I'm genius, I know.)

So, for the past two weeks, I've been eating organic applesauce (no sugar, just shmooshed apples) w/ an ounce of Mona Vie (that acai berry stuff), and peanut butter toast. Peanut butter, like the applesauce, just shmooshed peanuts and salt.) And four pounds! Gone!

Now I'm down to 187, which, while it's only 1lbs less than my last numbered update, it's 4lbs less than last week. I just need to keep staying under 190, and the pounds will keep going down. It's like, when I've over 190, I just don't care. I'm depressed, feel ugly, don't take care of me, eat cookies cuz it's like what worse can I do to myself? Bottom line, VERY bad place for me to be mentally. So, I'll just stay under 190. Beautiful.

Today I spent the whole morning gardening. Like, serious gardening...digging up rock and grass, tilling my garden area with only a shovel, planting...I got a nice tan line, and burned a ton of calories, I'm sure. And, I LOVED it. It's so gorgeous this weekend, I just need constructive things to occupy my time.

I want to nap, but I think I'll be happier if I just go clean up the kitchen instead.